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apparently, my last post was 87 weeks ago. is it just me, or is that a long time?
I feel like such a different person. life is just such an amazing force. so, right now, things are really weird because my school changed how the classes are and i barely see my friends or get to talk to them. everything just feels so muffled. i would like to have a teacher or something like that whom i can just talk to about life during these ridiculous breaks. I had Mr. Cassetta last year and that was wonderful but i guess he was too cool for school and is now trying to fight the system. Way to go Cassetta! I hope he gets stuff done.
All of my emotions these days are ruled by optimism even if i dont feel it at the time. though i do have some pretty ridiculous swings, i am sure it isnt so bad as it used to be and how it used to be wasnt as bad as some kids have it.
I am trying to smile a lot more and it is pretty fun. I try to teach my mom to do it with me because she needs it maybe more than i do. My dad is a completely different story so i dont even know where to go with that except patience and extreme diligence. My sister is so bloody amazing. She is possibly the happiest person i know and is always just trying to help me. we laugh so much together. My relationship status is the same as it ever was but now i am looking into how to reverse my current self image so that i can apply what i really feel and need to feel about myself to others in turn becoming my greatest attraction tool ever. Faking confidence can go a long way but finding it within one's self is a big part of enlightenment. Well, enlightenment is about too much to say that confidence is the key, but then again enlightenment is about so little. That is why it has been reached by only a select few.
Whatever peoples. I hope i am not writing this simply because i want someone to find it but because i needed to do this. If it was just a cry for attention, then dont fear giving some!
ps i guess i thought that these mood icons were cooler when i was in seventh grade or something but now most of them annoy me. I dont want to chage it though.
I feel like such a different person. life is just such an amazing force. so, right now, things are really weird because my school changed how the classes are and i barely see my friends or get to talk to them. everything just feels so muffled. i would like to have a teacher or something like that whom i can just talk to about life during these ridiculous breaks. I had Mr. Cassetta last year and that was wonderful but i guess he was too cool for school and is now trying to fight the system. Way to go Cassetta! I hope he gets stuff done.
All of my emotions these days are ruled by optimism even if i dont feel it at the time. though i do have some pretty ridiculous swings, i am sure it isnt so bad as it used to be and how it used to be wasnt as bad as some kids have it.
I am trying to smile a lot more and it is pretty fun. I try to teach my mom to do it with me because she needs it maybe more than i do. My dad is a completely different story so i dont even know where to go with that except patience and extreme diligence. My sister is so bloody amazing. She is possibly the happiest person i know and is always just trying to help me. we laugh so much together. My relationship status is the same as it ever was but now i am looking into how to reverse my current self image so that i can apply what i really feel and need to feel about myself to others in turn becoming my greatest attraction tool ever. Faking confidence can go a long way but finding it within one's self is a big part of enlightenment. Well, enlightenment is about too much to say that confidence is the key, but then again enlightenment is about so little. That is why it has been reached by only a select few.
Whatever peoples. I hope i am not writing this simply because i want someone to find it but because i needed to do this. If it was just a cry for attention, then dont fear giving some!
ps i guess i thought that these mood icons were cooler when i was in seventh grade or something but now most of them annoy me. I dont want to chage it though.