I'm up lateeee
Dear Reader,
SO yeah.... the summer has flown by- in the blink of an eye. Anyhow, as crazy as it is I'm off to college in 10 fucking days... that's insane to even think about though. I'm so excited and everything I don't even know what to think of it anymore. I hope I meet lots of new people that I can become aquainted with and possibly make more friends and enjoy these first two years of college at Dean. I don't really know what to expect yet.... but I'm hoping to have the time of my life. I applied for a job and I'll be working at a pub called "boomers" (I guess its a big hang out for the teenagers at my college) so yah this should be interesting. I'll be making like $10 an hr so its great and yeah I hope to make enough money so I can save up for a car when I come back home in the middle of may 2006.
Right now, I'm at my best friend Trish's house and she went to sleep a couple of hours ago... but she managed to bleach my hair successfully before crashing into her bed recklessly. I felt kinda bad for making her do it for me last minute but I'm very stubborn as those who know me..... and "when I want something.... I gotta have-it." (a quote from the movie the Notebook) Yeah, I'm really going to try hard in College for good grades and what-not and to try and remain aquaintanced with all my pals around here near my hometown. It's going to be difficult, yeah but I'm a Taurus and so therefore I'm pretty steadfast which means I normally pull through w/ my word and am very reliable believe it or not. Apparently Taurus's make very good friends and that's cool.....? Yeah.... blah I'm kinda tired- gah.
SO yeah as far as relationship wise... right now I'm effin' single- which actually migt not be too bad. I'm really gonna shoot for this committment thingy when I get another significant other... so yeah I really wanna like the next person a lot before I date them. There is this one kid who I have a FUCKING HUGE ASS crush on... and if you've been a frequent reader of my LJ you then know of him as "NICK". Well how would I decribe Nick.... hmmmm- well he's very giddy (aka-happy) around people but I dont think he has the best home life I guess you could say- he can sort of relate to me with the whole family situation but his is probably worse I think. God, I have a extreme liking for him and everyone seems to think "He's got me hooked, but I don't have him hooked" but I say FUCK THAT!! Yeah, whatever we'll see what happens when he comes back from Mississippi- he comes back on the 29th and we're finally getting to see one another on August 30th, which seems like a billion years since we saw one another @ Edson's fag party....... that btw was an interesting experience altogether. I don't really go to partayyyyy's and yeah that was probably one of the first party's I'd been to in a longgg ass time. SO yeah, back to Nick... he has a great personality and makes me get "butterflies" when I think about him practically in the back of my head all day long. Well, and yeah in my opinion he's also really goodlooking. I'm not physically attracted to many other people.... but it doesnt take very much to satisfy me in the "looks" dept. It's not a very important thing to me, even though I always pretend and joke around about how looks are almost everything..... well I admit they for sure aren't! I've learned that the hard way but yeah I really need to prove myself to Nick, because he's very sensative and he doesn't really trust any guys because he's been badly hurt from others in the past.... I try to let him know- that it'll be different with me but I guess it'll just take a few more times of us getting together and whatnot for me to prove myself to him. He's a great individual with tons of extraordinary qualities.
Okay, so then there's Brad- or is there? Idk- I've dated him for a misely two weeks about a month ago and it was great and were both still attracted to one another. I just dont know what to do cause once again im trying to pick one person to be committed to for a longterm relationship. Brad means so much to me because he treats me like Gold and I really do treasure all the amazing things he does for me on a day by day basis. His relationship with me is indescribable...... we understand each other though and I enjoy his company even though once again we dont get to see each other as much as I'd like to. The last time I saw him was about 3 and a half weeks ago right before I totalled my second car.......... hah! I'm sucha loser.... but I guess it wasnt my fault so I'm getting money from the other persons' insurance so w/e..... life goes on. Everyone should live today- like its your last day... cause you never know I guess you could say. After all I guess it is a gift to get to live but everything is so over-rated from sex to money to school.... all the topics of things that are overrated is endless.... yeah so I wonder I really value Bradley and my relationship so I think I'm gonna keep him as my best friend and give Nick a shot....cause I really like him.... not that i dont really like Brad it's just idk it's always good to be diverse and expand my horizons and since I already dated Brad I think I'll go with Nick, makes sense...... right?????? I dont fucking know..... decisions, decisions..... choices, choices........ BAH!
Okay~ well I'm going to go to bed its about 4:30am and right now I have wayyyy to much crap on my head.... I was fighting with my ex gf Charlotte online tonight because her bf is a doof face...... and decides to try and make fun of me with some of his friends because I'm gay and he thinks thats all wrong and what not.... well he can go fuck himself..... because he can live his own fucking life and I'll live mine. Okay so I havent necessarily been a complete angel and yeah I do admit I have my own seperate faults in our angry dispute together, its just- I just dont think I deserve to be "molested" by some kids that all in all are just jealous of me because I'm better? i really just wish everything could go back to how it usted to be and everyone could be friends again.... but I'm afraid my wishes are way to surreal to be achieved. Who know what lies ahead in the year ahead..... no one call tell for sure just yet. Well I'll try to keep posting and what not........ I'm also gonna have Brad make this Live Journal a little more interesting and so fowarth... he really has a knack for this technology crap..... God he's so good to me :-).
Much Love,
~Brian~
SO yeah.... the summer has flown by- in the blink of an eye. Anyhow, as crazy as it is I'm off to college in 10 fucking days... that's insane to even think about though. I'm so excited and everything I don't even know what to think of it anymore. I hope I meet lots of new people that I can become aquainted with and possibly make more friends and enjoy these first two years of college at Dean. I don't really know what to expect yet.... but I'm hoping to have the time of my life. I applied for a job and I'll be working at a pub called "boomers" (I guess its a big hang out for the teenagers at my college) so yah this should be interesting. I'll be making like $10 an hr so its great and yeah I hope to make enough money so I can save up for a car when I come back home in the middle of may 2006.
Right now, I'm at my best friend Trish's house and she went to sleep a couple of hours ago... but she managed to bleach my hair successfully before crashing into her bed recklessly. I felt kinda bad for making her do it for me last minute but I'm very stubborn as those who know me..... and "when I want something.... I gotta have-it." (a quote from the movie the Notebook) Yeah, I'm really going to try hard in College for good grades and what-not and to try and remain aquaintanced with all my pals around here near my hometown. It's going to be difficult, yeah but I'm a Taurus and so therefore I'm pretty steadfast which means I normally pull through w/ my word and am very reliable believe it or not. Apparently Taurus's make very good friends and that's cool.....? Yeah.... blah I'm kinda tired- gah.
SO yeah as far as relationship wise... right now I'm effin' single- which actually migt not be too bad. I'm really gonna shoot for this committment thingy when I get another significant other... so yeah I really wanna like the next person a lot before I date them. There is this one kid who I have a FUCKING HUGE ASS crush on... and if you've been a frequent reader of my LJ you then know of him as "NICK". Well how would I decribe Nick.... hmmmm- well he's very giddy (aka-happy) around people but I dont think he has the best home life I guess you could say- he can sort of relate to me with the whole family situation but his is probably worse I think. God, I have a extreme liking for him and everyone seems to think "He's got me hooked, but I don't have him hooked" but I say FUCK THAT!! Yeah, whatever we'll see what happens when he comes back from Mississippi- he comes back on the 29th and we're finally getting to see one another on August 30th, which seems like a billion years since we saw one another @ Edson's fag party....... that btw was an interesting experience altogether. I don't really go to partayyyyy's and yeah that was probably one of the first party's I'd been to in a longgg ass time. SO yeah, back to Nick... he has a great personality and makes me get "butterflies" when I think about him practically in the back of my head all day long. Well, and yeah in my opinion he's also really goodlooking. I'm not physically attracted to many other people.... but it doesnt take very much to satisfy me in the "looks" dept. It's not a very important thing to me, even though I always pretend and joke around about how looks are almost everything..... well I admit they for sure aren't! I've learned that the hard way but yeah I really need to prove myself to Nick, because he's very sensative and he doesn't really trust any guys because he's been badly hurt from others in the past.... I try to let him know- that it'll be different with me but I guess it'll just take a few more times of us getting together and whatnot for me to prove myself to him. He's a great individual with tons of extraordinary qualities.
Okay, so then there's Brad- or is there? Idk- I've dated him for a misely two weeks about a month ago and it was great and were both still attracted to one another. I just dont know what to do cause once again im trying to pick one person to be committed to for a longterm relationship. Brad means so much to me because he treats me like Gold and I really do treasure all the amazing things he does for me on a day by day basis. His relationship with me is indescribable...... we understand each other though and I enjoy his company even though once again we dont get to see each other as much as I'd like to. The last time I saw him was about 3 and a half weeks ago right before I totalled my second car.......... hah! I'm sucha loser.... but I guess it wasnt my fault so I'm getting money from the other persons' insurance so w/e..... life goes on. Everyone should live today- like its your last day... cause you never know I guess you could say. After all I guess it is a gift to get to live but everything is so over-rated from sex to money to school.... all the topics of things that are overrated is endless.... yeah so I wonder I really value Bradley and my relationship so I think I'm gonna keep him as my best friend and give Nick a shot....cause I really like him.... not that i dont really like Brad it's just idk it's always good to be diverse and expand my horizons and since I already dated Brad I think I'll go with Nick, makes sense...... right?????? I dont fucking know..... decisions, decisions..... choices, choices........ BAH!
Okay~ well I'm going to go to bed its about 4:30am and right now I have wayyyy to much crap on my head.... I was fighting with my ex gf Charlotte online tonight because her bf is a doof face...... and decides to try and make fun of me with some of his friends because I'm gay and he thinks thats all wrong and what not.... well he can go fuck himself..... because he can live his own fucking life and I'll live mine. Okay so I havent necessarily been a complete angel and yeah I do admit I have my own seperate faults in our angry dispute together, its just- I just dont think I deserve to be "molested" by some kids that all in all are just jealous of me because I'm better? i really just wish everything could go back to how it usted to be and everyone could be friends again.... but I'm afraid my wishes are way to surreal to be achieved. Who know what lies ahead in the year ahead..... no one call tell for sure just yet. Well I'll try to keep posting and what not........ I'm also gonna have Brad make this Live Journal a little more interesting and so fowarth... he really has a knack for this technology crap..... God he's so good to me :-).
Much Love,
~Brian~