Just got back from vaca in NJ
Dear Readers,
Wow- a lot has happened in the past couple of weeks. Well Yeah my job at lake compounce is going quite well and all is good there.... its the kinda job that it is what you make of it.
I go to college orientation tomorrow and get to see what Dean College is all about.... so yeah that should be loads of fun.
I really like this kid Nick, but he still has an ex that he isnt exactly over yet.... so yeah we're hanging out on Aug 30th, so we'll see what happens.... we just need to take everything slow. I've talked to him a couple of times on the phone and what not.... its really hard to contact him and everything but when I'm able to it's so great. I really have this huge crush on him that I havent had for anyone in the longest time...... I'm probably just afraid to give myself to just one person in fear that I might get crushed again... yeah so this feeling I have for Nick is something that I rarely have for another individiual, it's so exciting yet so frightening to me at the same time.... gah. He's all the way in Mississippi right now for his mom getting married or something and I miss him dearly. I just want him to trust me because I don't know if he realizes that what happened to him with his ex won't happen with me..... he needs to realize that I won't just get up and leave him outta the blue..... I'm a stubborn person and when I like something (in this case him) I gotta have it, and if i get it I won't ever ruin it........ it's kinda scary because for the past couple of weeks the only thing on my mind is HIM.... BAH... my love life is so confusing and I just want him to hold.
okay well yeah I'm at trish's right now, and we're having the time of our lives as always....... yey!
I g2g to work now....... which sux.
Feel free to comment and let me know what you think about my deliema or something.
Love Always,
Brian
Wow- a lot has happened in the past couple of weeks. Well Yeah my job at lake compounce is going quite well and all is good there.... its the kinda job that it is what you make of it.
I go to college orientation tomorrow and get to see what Dean College is all about.... so yeah that should be loads of fun.
I really like this kid Nick, but he still has an ex that he isnt exactly over yet.... so yeah we're hanging out on Aug 30th, so we'll see what happens.... we just need to take everything slow. I've talked to him a couple of times on the phone and what not.... its really hard to contact him and everything but when I'm able to it's so great. I really have this huge crush on him that I havent had for anyone in the longest time...... I'm probably just afraid to give myself to just one person in fear that I might get crushed again... yeah so this feeling I have for Nick is something that I rarely have for another individiual, it's so exciting yet so frightening to me at the same time.... gah. He's all the way in Mississippi right now for his mom getting married or something and I miss him dearly. I just want him to trust me because I don't know if he realizes that what happened to him with his ex won't happen with me..... he needs to realize that I won't just get up and leave him outta the blue..... I'm a stubborn person and when I like something (in this case him) I gotta have it, and if i get it I won't ever ruin it........ it's kinda scary because for the past couple of weeks the only thing on my mind is HIM.... BAH... my love life is so confusing and I just want him to hold.
okay well yeah I'm at trish's right now, and we're having the time of our lives as always....... yey!
I g2g to work now....... which sux.
Feel free to comment and let me know what you think about my deliema or something.
Love Always,
Brian