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okay, so maybe i'm being a bitch by not talking to him. its not that i dotn want to, well it is a lil of that, but it's mostly the fact that i want to actually tell him how i feel over the phone. it's much easier to hide what you truley want to say over the net and quite frankly i want it to be somewhat harsh. okay, well theres proof i'm a bitch, but still. what a stupid head-- i'm not sure if i meant that towards myself or him btu whatever. we're both idiots. if we would have just both moved on none of this would be happening. why didnt we? well some people choose to answer that question by say that we're "meant to be together". what the fock does that mean? how can you possibly know if that single person in the world is your soulmate? love is a load of crap. there's no such thing. cuz if there was, well, there would be many more happy people in this world. or something. i dunno. i dont have a firm grasp on my theory yet. gimme a couple more months and i'll be able to give you a full out explanation with data tables and such. until then- well lets everybody love their neighbor like themselves.