Well, it's official...
I had a talk with Dan today after I went on to a website we mutually belong to, and I read his journal about his boyfriend.....and he finally admitted to me that he loves Marcus, and that we really don't have a chance ourselves. He says that it is because we are too similar....While I think we are different enough to keep interested....then again, that's only my opinion. I am kinda hurting right now......OK......I am REALLY hurting right now.....and I wish I could channel the pain away from myself or something.....in the mean time, he is an amazing friend...and I am still in love with him....who knows what the future will hold.....forgive me for being stubborn and seemingly wanting the pain....*sigh* God, I am stuck on him....
Btw, work got interesting....I'm being promoted....and I really don't want it....i want to leave that place at a run, not a walk....but I have to wait til I can talk with an acquaintance from a former job (she used to be a Casting Director in LA for 20 years) to try and get myself going in the direction I want. Ought to keep me slightly busy as I soak in the deep abiding pain I call home right now.
wheee, more fun later....now I am 12 mins from 30....wheee...
Btw, work got interesting....I'm being promoted....and I really don't want it....i want to leave that place at a run, not a walk....but I have to wait til I can talk with an acquaintance from a former job (she used to be a Casting Director in LA for 20 years) to try and get myself going in the direction I want. Ought to keep me slightly busy as I soak in the deep abiding pain I call home right now.
wheee, more fun later....now I am 12 mins from 30....wheee...