OK...little confused now...
So I am throwing information out for the world to review, and give me some outside perspective. Here we go:
Things are still kinda rough as far as my love life is concerned. I had a kinda strange conversation with Dan yesterday, and I am not sure what to make of it. Over the past couple days, I was kinda pulling back a little, since I am preparing for the time that Marcus is going to be released from jail, and he and Dan will be able to see each other again. Dan kinda felt that creeping in, and was continually asking me about it til I fessed up to what was running through my head.
The weird thing to me is that he again asserted that he didn't want that distance, that he wanted to remain as close as we were, the only difference being that we aren't to have sex...and that he wasn't even officially dating Marcus, yet, though he has been moving heaven and earth to make sure he has a life to return to, including him...yet at the same time, he's talking about all the things he wants to do with me, going on long motorcycle rides (I am going to get certified to ride this fall) and different places he wants to go with me, and always wanting to keep our time together, no matter who he is "seeing."
I'm sure you can see my dilemma - I feel like I am kinda being treated like a boyfriend, yet in the same breath, I feel like I am not...and I don't know what I can or should do...i know I would be even more miserable for not having him in my life, yet I can't comprehend this dichotomy we are placing ourselves into...I wonder if I am the only one who sees it as such, if I might just be crazy, and this is normal behavior (my gut says no, but it has been wrong before)...
So there we have it. Feel free to opine away, any thoughts are better than my own at this point. Thanks in advance!
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