oh to be young and carefree
So today I got an unexpected email from an old High School friend, and it got me thinking, and reminiscing. It has been thirteen years since I graduated High School 13 years, when I was a kid 13 years was an eternity now I say gee wiz where did the time go! Why is it when we want time to slow it goes so fast, but when you wanted time to go by more quickly it crawled by. I can remember the fun times I had when I was a kid/teen, I loved being involved in 4-H, the YMCA Leaders club, Boy Scouts, Junior Fair Board. This would be about the time that we would get out live stock for the fair in August. We would be planning to go to summer camp for Boy Scouts and Leaders Training School for the Y. I miss going camping one weekend a month with my Boy Scout troop. I miss teaching swimming lessons at the Y. I really miss working at the YMCA day camp that was so fun some of the best times of my life! Although I did not get paid to do any of this (my parents did) Now I have to work 5 days a week 8 hours a day, to be able to pay bills and do something fun on my vacation. When we were younger we would have the hole summer off to have fun play in the back yard be a camp counselor, wow good old camp Fitch wow that was so fun, my trips to Halliburton Canada, and New Mexico to Philmont with Boy Scouts for long camping trips. To be young and care free again! Not to have a car payment, or utilities to pay, rent, to be 16 again. I worked for fun when I was that age. I had fun jobs when I was younger, like working at Pioneer Water land ( a water park near where I grew up) The long summer days being a life guard a chubby life guard, I loved to sit there in my life guard chair getting sun, workin on my tan! Now I am lucky to get to be out in the sun for 2 weeks out of the year. Oh how I yearn to be able to go back to how it was back then. My parents are great they are so supportive and loving I could not ask for better parents. Now that I am 31 I wish I could refuse to grow up any more. I fooled around with more boys in Boy Scouts it was so fun, and fooling around with the neighborhood boys hehe! Now I am “married” and very happy, now my life has changed! We have cars, rent and utilities, we are saving for a house. We will have to furnish that and buy all the appliances washer and dryer, refrigerator, all that stuff… I am excited but nervous at the same time; it is a big step in my life. It is just amazing how when we are young we want to be older; I can remember being 10 or 12 and thinking my cousins who were in there late 20’s were old! Now I am older and I want to be young again! To not have the responsibilities I have now! It was so much easier back then, now I am gay and out and all that, I do not know if me coming out earlier would have changed anything but I think I came out when I was ready. Growing up is bitter, sweet. I am going to be 32 years old on June 3rd just where did the time go where am I in my life? I have a good job stressful as it may be, I have a great relationship with my parents and an ok relationship with my siblings. I have a wonderful partner who I love, he makes me happy! All in all I have had a great life no real complaints and I have no regrets!