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weekly review: sunday was the last of my one man party which i preferred, so when j.j. came over it became a wreck. theres no exaggeration for the missed connection we projected. well he ended up leaving mumbling something out of frustration that made me laugh, although the next day was no laughing matter. stupid sorry-ass valentines gay hooray, hate this fuckin holiday was a colossal disaster seeing as how i knew i wasnt doin shit but somehow by the end of the night was in tears. i was majorly disappointed that j.j. ignored me the entire day that it made me crazy and finally when i talked to him, i was screaming at the top of my lungs. it wouldnt have been so bad if he would have just talked to me as soon as he had a chance and told me what was up, like he couldnt leave his gf WHATEVER, anything. but no...nothing so in the end i say im done with his ass, too bad thats not the end. my first day back to work and im getting alot of attention cuz my co-workers noticed my absence and was happy i was back,ahh. i was not havin it and could not function without clearing things up with j.j. after 5hrs i went home sick (depressed) to finally talk to j.j. who came over and porked me to make everything ok. wed im happy, everythings cool until 9pm and i still havent talked to j.j. once which is unusual and irritating cuz i dont like feeling ignored. during my unscheduled escape offline i get him on the phone only for the DON to come after me pissed off. he yells at me to get back online and j.j. tells me to call him back when off of work but supprise supprise he didnt answer. thurs morning i leave him a message saying im not going to call him all fuckin day and to call me back befor work, which he fails to do so im determined not to stalk him but i cant control my persistence to get answers. later that evening he explains he trying to mellow out and chill with his girl due to her persistent questioning him about screwing around on her. WHY DIDNT YOU JUST SAY SO! fuckin jackass how many times do i have to say be straight, no bullshit! fine i wont intrude and give u some time and i dont call again until saturday when he too felt we needed to talk, that night we spent a short time together but satisfying, things are still up in the air, someone pray that i can control myself and remember i dont want him to leave his girl and he isnt going to either.