up up and crash
unexpectantly i ended up in his bed, i could have gave a shit. now its as if ive discovered what i shouldve been looking for all along. after all every seeks his attention and he sought mine and for what? fuck me til you find something better? great...i tried to write this yesterday after my confidence level dropped below zero and left nothing but a defeated empty soul. how do i tell him i deserve more, he wanted this and worse now so do i.
next day everything starts to unravel about my acceptance in his interest of another. what difference does it make should i be? then i realize he would only assume i thought the way because he liked her more. thats fine, she has a boyfriend and that's whats attractive about her. me i could be his best friend and his girl and he tells me he only wants to have and play. this should be so easy for me to accept, this is what every guy wants from me everything so he wont have to give me anything. hurts though, i dont see comfort in sight and im panicking.....why i dont understand does this keep happening to me?
next day everything starts to unravel about my acceptance in his interest of another. what difference does it make should i be? then i realize he would only assume i thought the way because he liked her more. thats fine, she has a boyfriend and that's whats attractive about her. me i could be his best friend and his girl and he tells me he only wants to have and play. this should be so easy for me to accept, this is what every guy wants from me everything so he wont have to give me anything. hurts though, i dont see comfort in sight and im panicking.....why i dont understand does this keep happening to me?