So, yeah... I'm not dead.
I wish I had lots of witty, pithy things to post, but I don't really.
I've made some interesting Time-Lapse art vidoes, if anyone is interested...
http://www.youtube.com/user/Shadesiren
I want to make some more soon. Hopefully next week, I'll find the time :P
Oh, yeah - next week. I go in for the last bit of oral surgery. Got all the bad teeth out, my bones have all healed up nicely, but there are a few spots that are not as smooth as they would like. Basically, I can get my new teeth NOW, but if I do, I'll have a lot of pain on these spots. So I go in next week so they can Grind My Bones (I love saying that, is that weird? Grind my bones! Reminds me of Eddie Izzard.. Crack Your Bones! the Chiropractor joke!) Anyway, then I spend a week eating painkillers and healing up. I'm looking at being approximately ONE month from finally having my new smile.
I just want to be able to talk properly again, and maybe eat some nuts.
Newish car is wonderful. I like driving it, I like being in it. I can't wait to go visit dad in it. Not too soon.. Mark'll never let me do that yet, but soon I hope. I'd go next week while I'm healing, but I think that's a bad idea. I need to just feel better.
It's been a hard year. Really, really hard. Hard with the job mess, wondering how that was going to work out. Hard going back to the other store, where everything was weird, and people made it really hard to find my footing again. Then I jumped headfirst into the teeth thing, thinking it would fly past, and it just keeps going on and on and on... I have only cried once. Kinda proud of that. This is probably the most I've had to say on the whole subject. Just the fear of knowing those teeth are GONE... They may have been bad, but they were THERE. Now there's NOTHING. It's scary. It's only the tops, thank goodness. I think if I'd have to do top AND bottom this would have been WAY worse.
Anyway. One of my customers at work had this done, and she finally came in and showed me her new smile. It's SO beautiful. It makes me want to cry, it's so beautiful. I want it to be that way for me... I want to look in the mirror, and cry because I have a real smile again. It's been so long, with broken front teeth, cavities.. just ugly teeth. I'm afraid I'm going to set my hopes too high, and they can never live up to it. There's another fear I can't get away from. What if they DON'T look nice? What if they're super painful or uncomfortable? Come loose all the time? UGH.
The dentist told me the high arch of the roof of my mouth should act as a natural suction cup, and hold them in place beautifully. It's been since April I've not had upper teeth.. my lower teeth feel weird, with nothing above them. Will the new ones feel huge and awful? Ugh.
So.. there ya go. TMI and IDC. :P
Oh, on the plus side (with the new car) Mark bought me a new wedding ring. He also got my old one fixed. I get to pick the old one up tomorrow. The new one is a circle of vines, with tiny diamonds in the leaves. It's super pretty, but I don't have a good picture of it yet. Nifty fact: it has 15 teeny diamonds in it, and Mark and I have been together 15 years. :) yay. I miss my amethyst, bu the vine is SO pretty.
I got new glasses right about the time I was supposed to get my new teeth, wanted to do it all at once, but oh, well, it's just taking longer.
I think that's most of the big stufff... so feel all caught up.
I've made some interesting Time-Lapse art vidoes, if anyone is interested...
http://www.youtube.com/user/Shadesiren
I want to make some more soon. Hopefully next week, I'll find the time :P
Oh, yeah - next week. I go in for the last bit of oral surgery. Got all the bad teeth out, my bones have all healed up nicely, but there are a few spots that are not as smooth as they would like. Basically, I can get my new teeth NOW, but if I do, I'll have a lot of pain on these spots. So I go in next week so they can Grind My Bones (I love saying that, is that weird? Grind my bones! Reminds me of Eddie Izzard.. Crack Your Bones! the Chiropractor joke!) Anyway, then I spend a week eating painkillers and healing up. I'm looking at being approximately ONE month from finally having my new smile.
I just want to be able to talk properly again, and maybe eat some nuts.
Newish car is wonderful. I like driving it, I like being in it. I can't wait to go visit dad in it. Not too soon.. Mark'll never let me do that yet, but soon I hope. I'd go next week while I'm healing, but I think that's a bad idea. I need to just feel better.
It's been a hard year. Really, really hard. Hard with the job mess, wondering how that was going to work out. Hard going back to the other store, where everything was weird, and people made it really hard to find my footing again. Then I jumped headfirst into the teeth thing, thinking it would fly past, and it just keeps going on and on and on... I have only cried once. Kinda proud of that. This is probably the most I've had to say on the whole subject. Just the fear of knowing those teeth are GONE... They may have been bad, but they were THERE. Now there's NOTHING. It's scary. It's only the tops, thank goodness. I think if I'd have to do top AND bottom this would have been WAY worse.
Anyway. One of my customers at work had this done, and she finally came in and showed me her new smile. It's SO beautiful. It makes me want to cry, it's so beautiful. I want it to be that way for me... I want to look in the mirror, and cry because I have a real smile again. It's been so long, with broken front teeth, cavities.. just ugly teeth. I'm afraid I'm going to set my hopes too high, and they can never live up to it. There's another fear I can't get away from. What if they DON'T look nice? What if they're super painful or uncomfortable? Come loose all the time? UGH.
The dentist told me the high arch of the roof of my mouth should act as a natural suction cup, and hold them in place beautifully. It's been since April I've not had upper teeth.. my lower teeth feel weird, with nothing above them. Will the new ones feel huge and awful? Ugh.
So.. there ya go. TMI and IDC. :P
Oh, on the plus side (with the new car) Mark bought me a new wedding ring. He also got my old one fixed. I get to pick the old one up tomorrow. The new one is a circle of vines, with tiny diamonds in the leaves. It's super pretty, but I don't have a good picture of it yet. Nifty fact: it has 15 teeny diamonds in it, and Mark and I have been together 15 years. :) yay. I miss my amethyst, bu the vine is SO pretty.
I got new glasses right about the time I was supposed to get my new teeth, wanted to do it all at once, but oh, well, it's just taking longer.
I think that's most of the big stufff... so feel all caught up.