a dialogue of the deaf
You know, I'll bet if most livejournal entries weren't written in the wee hours of the morning, there would be a lot less self-reflection and angst. "Night changes many thoughts." I was just thinking about how much I want to be back home with my friends to be with them through what they're dealing with, and I realized at the same time that me being there would almost without exception only make things worse. I've rarely felt as alone as that thought makes me feel. I feel like I've been cut out of the life of everyone I care about. I'll love you, I'll pray for you, and I'll hide my failures here at college? God, help me....!
I'd hug you if my touch
wouldn't rip you apart...
I'd lend you my crutch
But it would tear us apart…
And so Namarie
Hold out for
A better day
Hold on…
I swear I'm on my way
To stop this self-defeat
I hope I'll bring your day
By next time we meet
And so Namarie
Hold out for
A better day
Hold on…
01023005
From "More Than Useless" by guess who? Relient K. I swear I could've written this song….
I feel like
I would like
to be somewhere else
doing something that matters
and I lay here
or I sit here
my mind walks away
and my thoughts are together
Whats the purpose
it feels worthless
so I'm haunted by the loss of my value
I can't find it
not in the least bit
and I'm just scared,
scared that I'll fail you
and sometimes I think
that I'm not any good at all
and sometimes
I wonder why
I'm even here at all
but then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
when I think that I can't do this
you promise me that I'll get through this
and do something right
do something right for once
I know this
I know this
weak is the symbol of how I use my time
resented
I spent it
convincing myself
the worlds doing just fine
without me
I’m doing anything with any consequence
without me
showing anytime with never making sense
of my time
its my life
and my right to use it like I should
like he would
for the good
of everything that I would ever know
I’m a little more than useless
and never knew I knew this
its gonna the day
gonna be the day
that I will do something right
do something right for once
I'd hug you if my touch
wouldn't rip you apart...
I'd lend you my crutch
But it would tear us apart…
And so Namarie
Hold out for
A better day
Hold on…
I swear I'm on my way
To stop this self-defeat
I hope I'll bring your day
By next time we meet
And so Namarie
Hold out for
A better day
Hold on…
01023005
From "More Than Useless" by guess who? Relient K. I swear I could've written this song….
I feel like
I would like
to be somewhere else
doing something that matters
and I lay here
or I sit here
my mind walks away
and my thoughts are together
Whats the purpose
it feels worthless
so I'm haunted by the loss of my value
I can't find it
not in the least bit
and I'm just scared,
scared that I'll fail you
and sometimes I think
that I'm not any good at all
and sometimes
I wonder why
I'm even here at all
but then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
when I think that I can't do this
you promise me that I'll get through this
and do something right
do something right for once
I know this
I know this
weak is the symbol of how I use my time
resented
I spent it
convincing myself
the worlds doing just fine
without me
I’m doing anything with any consequence
without me
showing anytime with never making sense
of my time
its my life
and my right to use it like I should
like he would
for the good
of everything that I would ever know
I’m a little more than useless
and never knew I knew this
its gonna the day
gonna be the day
that I will do something right
do something right for once