T -10 and counting
This is ridiculous.
There honestly isn't that much left to do for the wedding, and what there is are things I don't really care about that much (might not have anything on my head, OTOH means I don't have to figure out how to style my hair around it), things that can legitimately left to the last minute (flowers, else they will die, and it's three bouquets, how hard could it possibly be to make flowers look pretty. They're already pretty.) or is on a scheduled time table.
My new job is under control, meaning that I'm in training and learning a lot and still am not entirely solid on what I'm doing BUT I'm getting there, and everything I have to do is within my skill set. The worst part is learning the forms and the organizational system.
HOWEVER, the combination of New Stressful Thing and Approaching Deadline of Doom/Intense Social Event seems to have kicked me into...I'm not sure how to describe it. Adrenaline overload I suppose--lots of nervous energy to Get Things Done which can be very productive. I'm at my best for time management when I have to do it in blocks of an hour. But since I don't honestly have much to do, I'm just sitting here quietly vibrating.
Exercise at least is productive, and makes my body happy, except that for me stress kills my appetite, and even when I feel hungry I can't eat as much as usual, which makes getting enough calories to get through exercise tricky. AND, you know, not really feeling like being social with more than a couple people that I know pretty well at a time, and what's coming up? Oh, a weekend of socialization which includes relatives of D's I have never met.
Alrighty, enough of that, things are actually, objectively, going really well for me, and everything will be fine (which is what makes this stress adrenaline so annoying! It's useless!).
There honestly isn't that much left to do for the wedding, and what there is are things I don't really care about that much (might not have anything on my head, OTOH means I don't have to figure out how to style my hair around it), things that can legitimately left to the last minute (flowers, else they will die, and it's three bouquets, how hard could it possibly be to make flowers look pretty. They're already pretty.) or is on a scheduled time table.
My new job is under control, meaning that I'm in training and learning a lot and still am not entirely solid on what I'm doing BUT I'm getting there, and everything I have to do is within my skill set. The worst part is learning the forms and the organizational system.
HOWEVER, the combination of New Stressful Thing and Approaching Deadline of Doom/Intense Social Event seems to have kicked me into...I'm not sure how to describe it. Adrenaline overload I suppose--lots of nervous energy to Get Things Done which can be very productive. I'm at my best for time management when I have to do it in blocks of an hour. But since I don't honestly have much to do, I'm just sitting here quietly vibrating.
Exercise at least is productive, and makes my body happy, except that for me stress kills my appetite, and even when I feel hungry I can't eat as much as usual, which makes getting enough calories to get through exercise tricky. AND, you know, not really feeling like being social with more than a couple people that I know pretty well at a time, and what's coming up? Oh, a weekend of socialization which includes relatives of D's I have never met.
Alrighty, enough of that, things are actually, objectively, going really well for me, and everything will be fine (which is what makes this stress adrenaline so annoying! It's useless!).