I have a few questions, and spilling my heart out

[shade564]

I do not like livejournal. I don't think posting emo bullshit all day long is a form of entertainment, but looking back the past few weeks thats changed, so maybe I will start posting more often. I've seen people, especially Steven(congrats to you) posting about good things that have been happening. The last week or two though especially disturbed

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[son_goku]

I saw Fiona at the halloween party and everything was fine. Now all this

[shade564]

No problem Topher. I really want it to work out, and dont worry, I don't hang on anyones word. It may be a little hypocritical of me, but I am clearly asking everyone about their sides, even yours so thank you for sharing it. I want to come to a solution, not make more problems. Thank you for commenting.

[sweetcoal]

what i posted was not just about christa and matt. she is constantly underminding me at every turn, making me feel like i know absolutly nothing, and i have forgiven her time and time again. ive tried to talk to her about it, but she insists that she does nothing wrong, and makes it out to be all my fault. the only reason i posted that was because i knew eventually that she would read it, since she wouldnt have listened if i had tried to talk to her about it, i didnt do it online thinking 'oh, its on the computer, nobody can hurt me.' im sorry i had to post it so violently, but if it is the only thing that works, than i have to

[shade564]

Then we will all try to watch what we say a little more, ok? Will that be enough?

[darkdreamer73]

Yes, I was hurt, I was extremely hurt by stuff that was said. And yes, Fiona has always been less-then-pleasant about Matt. It hurts me so badly to have a friend I care about and love think that I have made such a bad decision in a boyfriend. And to be honest, it's kind of insulting too because she knows me and she knows that I wouldn't choose a person like that to be with

[shade564]

"I absolutely refuse to lose friends over it." Great!
on that note, let it be known that I have nothing against Matt. I used to not like him much, but I never hung out with him and only had what other people said to base an opinion on. That has changed, and I personally think Matts a cool guy to hang out with now. I wish I knew that sooner. I absolutely agree that you shouldn't tolerate people saying stuff about him. I would hate it if people constantly badmouthed Fiona, and I think all of us could try to watch what we say a little more, right Fiona?
Fiona says "Yes"
I don't want to fight either, and I should not have said what I said about dropping people earlier. I apologise to everyone for that. I was in the mood, y'know? Thank you for the clarification Christa.

[guynamedude]

i have no issue with any of you, i never have. but i've noticed that fiona's comments are clearly upsetting christa, be it what she says or just how she says it. you know what, i'm more than willing to let all this pass, the only thing i ask is that fiona either accepts me or keeps her comments to herself. i have no issue with any of you and just want this to be over with. and i thought that this was over with immediately following the party. i'm more than happy with moving on with life and putting this behind us. Like Topher is with Kailee or you are with Fiona, I dont want to see Christa hurt, and i'll go with whatever she wants, and she wants to resolve this, so i'm willing to do it too. i dont want this to go on any longer or hurt anyone else.

there, thats my 2 cents.

[shade564]

Matt you dirty liar, thats 6 cents! you've given it twice earlier!
Sorry, couldn't resist.
I say it would be a great idea if we all forgot about it. Before I let it drop though, I want to apologise to everyone in person. You have my word that I won't hurt Christa, and I will make sure that nobody else does it while I'm around. Thank you for finding my entry, Matt.

[guynamedude]

damnit! foiled again...

thanks john, i'm more than willing to put this behind me

[tsukikuroi]

I honestly never really meant to be condescending or anyhting of the such to matt, I might of been a little snide at first, when I only knew Nacny's half of the story, because Nance is a good friend of mine and as far as I knew, Matt had hurt Nancy and I was afraid that he might do the same to Christa. Anyone can imagine my shock when I finally did get Matt's half of the story, I felt horrible and I told Christa as much because we were talking online right when I read it. It's just, I never felt anything for Matt as much more than a Lunch buddy last year, so when all-of-a-sudden he's hanging out with us all the time and coming to all the parties and stuff it felt a little akward cause I still didn't see him as anything more than an aquantince. So I admit I might of been snide at times because that's just how I am with people I don't know, all sarcasm and barbs with a wall a mile high. I'll try to get better, but it just like Christa said, that's just how I am, and I can't change that. I can be utterly clueless, but that doesn't mean I

[guynamedude]

i know, im an awkward addition to any group but i really dont have any problems with you lot. and i'm sorry for the rant that started the reaction, i only meant for this to be between us, i never meant for the scale that this whole thing went. i do accept your apology and i hope you accept my apology for starting everything that followed. you're not a bad person, like me, you just need some getting used to and that wont take long

[tsukikuroi]

thanks matt, and it's not so much that you are an awkward addition, but I find change awkward, period. I've had the same set of friends since my freshmen year, so little chages in that group can make a huge impact on me. I love all my friends and I give that love unconditionally, so when some one knew come into my... I suppose close-knit-group, it just leaves a ripple on he surface that takes a bit to go away, you know? Your a great guy matt, and I'm sorry that I didn't think so before with the whole Nancy ordeal, but I'll put that behind us and try to be better friends, besides, how can I forget playing with miyer's cookies every day at lunch? ^=^ good times!

[guynamedude]

hahaha, i forgot you were in the topher cookies playing lunch. you're a good person too, im sorry i didnt get a chance to know you more before i started dating christa.