Ahhh Sweet Enlightenment
I just thought about something on the ride home from school...I have found the error of my ways...the reason me ans Shea didn't work before is because we lost our passion...I'm going to get mine back...I'm going to find my passion in my life just like she found hers...I'm going to go on a STRICT diet and start taking hydroxycut for my weight...I'm going to start working out...and I'm going to better my appearance...in the way I want to...all this time I've been thinking about what Shea wanted me to be...thats not what a relationship is...it's two seperate people with seperate lives, living together because they have a passion for each other...I just hope everything goes in my favor...I'm seeing things in a NEW LIGHT...just like she is...I KNOW Shea still LOVES me...but I need to love myself before I can expect her to believe in me again...I need to believe in myself...and I'm going to do it by keeping in touch with her...so I can draw my courage from her...I'M GOING TO FIND MY PASSION AGAIN...THANK YOU SHEA I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH....