The worst side of me
well while thinking about some of the things I've done in my life I realized I'm not a low down, rotten, piece of shit...but I acted like one to Shae...and if you have a problem with this then don't talk to me...and Brandon if YOU have a problem with this then talk to me cause I have some things you might like to hear about it...Anyway, heres the God's honest truth about what happened between me and Shae...She came over Sunday night while I was waiting for her because we were supposed to go to her aunt Pam's to see her mom who we hadn't seen for like 2 months...then she tells me she needs to talk to me...I agree...and we walk to the road where she tells me shes unhappy with the way things are...and instead of coming to me and talking to me about it she kept it to herself and it built up and built up...and then she broke up with me and said she wouldn't be coming back...I was immediately heart broken...I thought about killing myself so many times that night and the nights after I can't even count the times...well she leaves to go see her mom and I'm miserable for 3 more days then she comes home and I call her up to get my stuff and give her her stuff....she wasn't ready to see me...thats ok I can deal with that...so then I go see her at work (BIG mistake on my part) on saturday...I cried my eyes out to her and told her that I wanted HER back...she smiled and said she was numb to feelings...that she doesn't want a relationship right now...and someone else was interested in her...and that he had just broken up with his girlfriend and they were conseling each other to get through it...I took it the wrong way and made it seem like she found someone else...thats not true...she didn't want the relationship right now...well then I get my stuff from her and give her stuff to her...and tell her dustin wants the laptop he GAVE her as a gift...she refused to give it to me...so I came home and told dustin...he said he'll just call the cops and get her arrested for stealing it...That there isn't right...but I say no...so I call her and tell her something and she starts crying and we fight for a LONG time...and now that I'm thinking about it...maybe I am a low-down rotten piece of shit for that...but I'm gonna try to make things right...because thats how I was raised...to do whats right no matter who agrees or disagrees...and the ONLY person I have talked to that has been truely neutral is Jodie...and she said that's wrong...now my parents always taught me to do whats right even in the face of everyone who doesn't agree...so now I'm going to try and make things right and give her the computer back...because rightfully its not mine...and if ANYONE does ANYTHING to fuck things up they will have to deal with me...I will personally beat the shit out of ANYONE who does this...and thats what really happened...