I Just Don't Understand How You Can Smile With All Those Tears In Your Eyes
yesterday was good then bad. school was the best its ever been. zoe was absent but ham was back and it felt so good to hang out with her. she is has the same kind of free spirited personality and i feel like she brings out a really good side of me. we are just always laughing and joking and having fun. i know from last year that shes very set on trying to split up our schools cliques. so she kind of strays a lot when we hang out which is fine because i can too. and i love that because i know that if i felt like hanging out with someone esle one day shed be like whatever, or just be part of it because shes so friendly. so anyway, i went to lunch with this girl towel. and i am obsessed with her. she is the funniest person ever and she has the same kind of sarcastic humor as my sister that i love. and i felt like a cool person.
what else about school was good. oh so we got course catalogs to pick our classes and i stayed late to talk to rachel about balancing my schedule. and i was freaking out because i wanted every single class to be academic. but she told me i should do AT LEAST 2 things i really want to do. so i decided on sketch book art and knitting. maybe next semester i will be brave enough to take UA voices. but anyway, she told me my schedule was perfectly balanced. and that if i keep going at my rate that she has no doubt in her mind that i will graduate on time if not earlier. and i was so relieved. and i know that i can do it now, piece of cake.
i hate when people say that my school is fake. it makes me feel really bad. like they dont teach me anything and my classes are bullshit but they have no idea. all my teachers are wonderful and personal and brilliant. and we have to do more than just sit though classes and pass them, being a part of urban makes you learn so much about yourself and you develop so many skills, like being able to clearly voice your opinions. we are discussion based and it helps the kids a lot. also, two teachers are leaving to start a new school like urban, if urban is bad and doesnt teach kids anything why make another one, how could it be approved by the board of ed. sorry we dont have standardized tests and strict rules. but we are better than any school ever. and thats it.
i hate when im with people and they talk about something i cant relate to. like a school i dont go to and people i dont know. its pretty annoying.
so all of my school concerns are gone and its all working out for the best. OH SHOOT! also, for community service, they found a deaf old folks home that im gonna work at. it means i have to miss lunch every wednesday but whateva. that is so o.d.
things are looking up again. i have a lot of ups and downs in life but who doesnt.
i cannot wait to see my sister again.
what else about school was good. oh so we got course catalogs to pick our classes and i stayed late to talk to rachel about balancing my schedule. and i was freaking out because i wanted every single class to be academic. but she told me i should do AT LEAST 2 things i really want to do. so i decided on sketch book art and knitting. maybe next semester i will be brave enough to take UA voices. but anyway, she told me my schedule was perfectly balanced. and that if i keep going at my rate that she has no doubt in her mind that i will graduate on time if not earlier. and i was so relieved. and i know that i can do it now, piece of cake.
i hate when people say that my school is fake. it makes me feel really bad. like they dont teach me anything and my classes are bullshit but they have no idea. all my teachers are wonderful and personal and brilliant. and we have to do more than just sit though classes and pass them, being a part of urban makes you learn so much about yourself and you develop so many skills, like being able to clearly voice your opinions. we are discussion based and it helps the kids a lot. also, two teachers are leaving to start a new school like urban, if urban is bad and doesnt teach kids anything why make another one, how could it be approved by the board of ed. sorry we dont have standardized tests and strict rules. but we are better than any school ever. and thats it.
i hate when im with people and they talk about something i cant relate to. like a school i dont go to and people i dont know. its pretty annoying.
so all of my school concerns are gone and its all working out for the best. OH SHOOT! also, for community service, they found a deaf old folks home that im gonna work at. it means i have to miss lunch every wednesday but whateva. that is so o.d.
things are looking up again. i have a lot of ups and downs in life but who doesnt.
i cannot wait to see my sister again.