STL...Yay?
I need to learn to not sit at home by myself and listen to my classic rock/easy listening mixes. They just put me in a mood to do...something. Not really get out and run around town, but something deeper. Kind of like sit in a coffeehouse with a friend I really don't know well and carry on long, philosophical conversations. Since I'm not at a coffeehouse and am alone, I suppose that need is going unfulfilled. Wouldn't be the first time. Besides, I'm too comfy in my fuzzy Pooh slippers to go anywhere.
I thought about writing about STL, decided against it, then changed my mind again. Hey, I'm a girl! If I were to write about my weekend, I think it would most likely be about how I have since re-evaluated myself and the people who I thought were my friends. I decided to better understand my situation, I need to define my different groups of friends. I've always had lots of friends growing up. The only exception being in Jr. High (7th and 8th grade). The reason, well, I was too accepting of people. See, I'd talk and hang out with everyone without discretion. One clique would see me with a different clique and decide not to associate with me anymore. This resulted in a very short period of time that I didn't have any friends. A strange phenomenon really. It's this mentality that sums up my STL experience. A friend who was in STL said it best "I fit in the outskirts of all the groups, but only on the outskirts." That was quoted as accurately as I remember being semi-drunk. Anyway, back to Jr. high. I soon got over it and picked up hobbies and new friends. As soon as high school came around, it seemed to me that people started changing. This could simply mean I was naive, but I liked to think everyone could get along. I had fantastic dreams of everyone using their unique talents, strengths and weaknesses working together to create something grand for society. Damn kids thinking they can make the world a perfect place.
I've since learned the above optimism is unrealistic. Now, I have friends divided into, for a lack of a better term, categories. I have coworkers, which I only associate from 8-4. They're good for a few laughs and maybe the occasional after work drink. Nothing so close that it would matter. The one friend that you know if you didn't see for two months or so it would be like you were never parted. I love my Jamie. The girlfriends that are awesome to go get mani/pedi's, shop and talk about boys with. Other people you see occasionally and are friendly with, but would never call. Those are the "acquaintances." Lastly, the internet friends. This is a relatively new phenomenon to me personally. I never had any until September 04 when I started KoL. It's these friends that I thought the most about. They're there for you, but not really. I suppose I've come to really wonder why when you see each other, say at meets, you seem to be on the same level, but once you leave, you go back to not talking much. Are they simply sunny day friends, or is it the distance and separation that drives the person away. Sure there are some of my internet friends I'd really like to get to know better, but, at the same time, there are those I don't. I'm hypocritical about my own complaint, heh, funny huh? Well, if I haven't confused you enough by now, I didn't do a good job. Time to run.
<3
I thought about writing about STL, decided against it, then changed my mind again. Hey, I'm a girl! If I were to write about my weekend, I think it would most likely be about how I have since re-evaluated myself and the people who I thought were my friends. I decided to better understand my situation, I need to define my different groups of friends. I've always had lots of friends growing up. The only exception being in Jr. High (7th and 8th grade). The reason, well, I was too accepting of people. See, I'd talk and hang out with everyone without discretion. One clique would see me with a different clique and decide not to associate with me anymore. This resulted in a very short period of time that I didn't have any friends. A strange phenomenon really. It's this mentality that sums up my STL experience. A friend who was in STL said it best "I fit in the outskirts of all the groups, but only on the outskirts." That was quoted as accurately as I remember being semi-drunk. Anyway, back to Jr. high. I soon got over it and picked up hobbies and new friends. As soon as high school came around, it seemed to me that people started changing. This could simply mean I was naive, but I liked to think everyone could get along. I had fantastic dreams of everyone using their unique talents, strengths and weaknesses working together to create something grand for society. Damn kids thinking they can make the world a perfect place.
I've since learned the above optimism is unrealistic. Now, I have friends divided into, for a lack of a better term, categories. I have coworkers, which I only associate from 8-4. They're good for a few laughs and maybe the occasional after work drink. Nothing so close that it would matter. The one friend that you know if you didn't see for two months or so it would be like you were never parted. I love my Jamie. The girlfriends that are awesome to go get mani/pedi's, shop and talk about boys with. Other people you see occasionally and are friendly with, but would never call. Those are the "acquaintances." Lastly, the internet friends. This is a relatively new phenomenon to me personally. I never had any until September 04 when I started KoL. It's these friends that I thought the most about. They're there for you, but not really. I suppose I've come to really wonder why when you see each other, say at meets, you seem to be on the same level, but once you leave, you go back to not talking much. Are they simply sunny day friends, or is it the distance and separation that drives the person away. Sure there are some of my internet friends I'd really like to get to know better, but, at the same time, there are those I don't. I'm hypocritical about my own complaint, heh, funny huh? Well, if I haven't confused you enough by now, I didn't do a good job. Time to run.
<3