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Well it has been a while since I wrote last. It is just that everytime that I have come on here to write something I am not exactly sure what to write down you know. LIke right now, i am sitting at that the computer and I am just looking at it. Well lets see whats been going on. My best friend Jessica is living with me, she left her husband and is getting a divorced. Its good having her live with me, cause she brings out the party animal in me. We go out all the time, Renegades, Kashmir, and any club that we can get into for free. I have had so much fun at Renegades I love it there. It is a blast, even though I am the only one that goes out there and dance. i have fun doing it.
Well thats whats has been going on around me. On the inside now that is a different story. I have just have so many thoughts that is going on inside my head that I don't know what to think. I don't even know what kind of things to write down here b/c they are soo mixed up and messed up in my mind. I just wish that things could be easier, and not so hard for me. I wish that as soon as something happens or I feel something for someone I wish it would go away. i don't like likeing someone, b/c i feel like a teenager with a crush. I am not writing the name on a notebook or writing a different last name or anything, but when i think of them i get gitty inside. When I am online i just wish for them to get on so I could just say hi, even if that is the only thing to say to them. I hate it, b/c not only will they not like me, but there is always the thought of getting shot down that I don't want anymore. I go out and i see people that I think are cute or what not but I don't try anymore cause of the thought and when i like someone i don't want to go for anyone. I just don't know what to do. WEll i must be heading off to work now..
Well thats whats has been going on around me. On the inside now that is a different story. I have just have so many thoughts that is going on inside my head that I don't know what to think. I don't even know what kind of things to write down here b/c they are soo mixed up and messed up in my mind. I just wish that things could be easier, and not so hard for me. I wish that as soon as something happens or I feel something for someone I wish it would go away. i don't like likeing someone, b/c i feel like a teenager with a crush. I am not writing the name on a notebook or writing a different last name or anything, but when i think of them i get gitty inside. When I am online i just wish for them to get on so I could just say hi, even if that is the only thing to say to them. I hate it, b/c not only will they not like me, but there is always the thought of getting shot down that I don't want anymore. I go out and i see people that I think are cute or what not but I don't try anymore cause of the thought and when i like someone i don't want to go for anyone. I just don't know what to do. WEll i must be heading off to work now..