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The past few weeks have turned into one giant blur. I've been doing soo much.this summer. Tom , erin and i hang out all the time. which is pretty much awesome. i love those two. Then we have had the whole "jake" situation. that kid is p h y s c h o. I have never been driven so insane by one human being. OY.anywhoo. Life has been good lately. Hanging out with friends, and i have a pretty good shift at work. With good people on my shift.= ) . School starts soon which is kind of depressing. But at the same time exciting because we dont have that much left. which is scarry to think about in itself. I've been thinking alot about what i want to do lately. And i'm really strongly considering workign at a magazine like Elle or Teen Vogue or soemthing. i mean i love magazines, and i love doing layouts, and writing, and i do love fashion/hair/makeup. so why not? But then theres the side of me that wants to Cure Juvenile Diabetes and open up my own pediatric endochronology practice, but then i also want to be a medical mal-practice attorney. decsions decsions. But like unlike somepeople, i wont ask you to make it for me. coughjakecough.
So there are some friends that i feel like i never see anymore. 2 being kathleen and sterling .and they live in the same neighborhood as me. Crazy. I should fix this.
Oh yeah. and my dad is runnign for judge, so we've been runnign around getting lots of campaign things together. I hope he wins. It'd be pretty sick to have a dad as a judge. so yeah. thats my random interjection.
So i pretty much have a strong urge to go bowling/iceskating. crazy istnt it.
When tom comes home though erin and i are throwing a cookout at the beach .So come kids.
So i just got off the phone with erin, and i sang her my rendittion of "Last Resort" by papa roach. gotta love it.
Tomarrow we're going to la movies. what fun. erin and i. no tom. tom is montnana, at a barn, taht has good cell reception. Oh i should cal him. i havent talked to him since about 2ish. Maybe i'll go do that.
So today i bought the rest of the AP books. It sucks. there long-ish.
Hung with katie this evening., that was fun. i miss her. Wish i saw her more.
b&n,wildoats,office depot, sun shoppe. fun fun.
Oh i'm vegetarian now! yay. erin has offically rubbed 100% off on me. Even chicken makes me want to die now.
Well i'm gonna go read/call tom.
<3
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a (insert wrod) if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a (insert word) if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong? Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might
Mudilation out of sight, and I'm contimplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
I ... can't ... go ... on ... living ... this ... way
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a (insert word ) if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong? Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might
Mudilation out of sight, and I'm contimplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I ... CAN'T ... GO ... ON ... LIVING ... THIS ... WAY
Can't go on ... living this way
Nothing's alright!