nothing really happened today...

[sexyrunt101]

...i went to my work after school to see my schedule and to ask my manager susan if i can switch positions. Well to be an Usher supervisor i have to wait until summer or spring time...so i have a couple of months of hair ripping stress to go through, dont get me wrong, i mean i lofe the respect that i get, and all the responsibility, but what i hate is all the ignorant, childish, stupid people i have to lead. I try to be a good model for all of them, but its hard when i feel like shit every single day. I still cant get over the fact what a horrible person i was to kristen and other people. It just kills me to think of the different situations that could have happened if we were talking then...things could have been so different. and with that i wrote a poem..but its not finished, so as soon as its done im gonna post it. And it jsut pisses the hell out of me when people tell me how sad it is and how they cried and how they loved her....they didnt even know her! they dont know how sad it is, they dont understand that, my best friend (even though we were in a fight i still considered her my best friend)died with out me being able to say sorry to her...do you know how much that hurts. Every time i close my eyes, i see her, and i try to say sorry, but its to late. It jsut sucks to think how different things could be. but anyways...i havce to get off that subject. School sucked today even though it was mad slack. All day all i did was play cards with some kids. It was kind of fun, but it got boring after awhile. In sociology the exam was really easy, we got to use our notes, and since he told us what was going to be on the test the previous class, everyone practically had the whole test on their one sheet of paper. The only hard part was the essays, it was opinin based essays...and of course, i have tons of opinions on everything, so my essays were like 3 pages. But it was cool. but yeah i guess im done...

~Heather

<3 Kristen <3