I give up...

[sexyrunt101]

thats it, i give up. Im so tired of all of this going on in my head. Everyone has been asking me whats wrong...why are you never around anymore..well its because i dont want to be around people. I hate going to work now, i hate being around people who remind me of kristen, and i hate being outside. All i do anymore is bury myself in a book and get to be someone else for a couple of hours. Its nice for awhile, but then you always have to come back to reality and come back to realization that you have your own life to go on with. People say they understand and that they are there to talk to if i need them...no they arent. No one can understand the guilt that i feel, the regret that i have or anything, and no one really cares or really listens, they just say that to make you feel better and at ease. I mean i try to be there for other people, i try to listen and try to help, but everyone is different, you cant help everyone, you cant be there for everyone else and yourself at the same time. So for all of you who just wont leave me alone...give me my time...let me figure some things out by myslef to where im comfortable about talking about them. And if its seems like im pulling myself away and being distant..i am, but its the only way i know how to deal with my problems, so jsut let me be.

~Heather

<3 Kristen <3