What a good day
Today I bought two-dozen roses and gave them out at school to all of the people I like. Everyone seemed so happy.
It's funny how so many of the things that before Monday seemed like huge emotional issues to me seem like nothing now. People that were really weighing on my mind are not so much anymore as well. It's nice to feel that kind of relief. I feel a lot more like myself even though I had to go through such a tough situation to get there.
My mom said to me today that a lot of the problems I had with Sid are things that she has with my father, and that it astounds her how differently we've dealt with those problems and how she thinks it's generational difference. There's so much more crap she's willing to take from my father that I am just not willing to take in a relationship. I told her that I don't have to be #1 in a relationship, but I can't be #2, we have to be equals. I have friends who have very successful relationships living this way so I think I can do it too. They compromise and take turns and consider what each has to do equally important.
Switching gears completely, I really hope that I'll be able to sing the text fast enough in the Cenerentola scene. It is just sooo fast and my tongue is so fat and slow. Before now, I've gotten along with faking it when they are really fast things. I don't know if I'll be able to from now on. I've worked really hard to even get where I am with regard to speed and I'm still not that great. It's because of my shoe-horn of a tongue!!!!!!!
Otherwise, school and singing is going well. I'm happy with school this semester, it's a completely different animal. People are being nice and the teachers love me and I feel like it's a supportive place. Yay!
Hello world!!!!
It's funny how so many of the things that before Monday seemed like huge emotional issues to me seem like nothing now. People that were really weighing on my mind are not so much anymore as well. It's nice to feel that kind of relief. I feel a lot more like myself even though I had to go through such a tough situation to get there.
My mom said to me today that a lot of the problems I had with Sid are things that she has with my father, and that it astounds her how differently we've dealt with those problems and how she thinks it's generational difference. There's so much more crap she's willing to take from my father that I am just not willing to take in a relationship. I told her that I don't have to be #1 in a relationship, but I can't be #2, we have to be equals. I have friends who have very successful relationships living this way so I think I can do it too. They compromise and take turns and consider what each has to do equally important.
Switching gears completely, I really hope that I'll be able to sing the text fast enough in the Cenerentola scene. It is just sooo fast and my tongue is so fat and slow. Before now, I've gotten along with faking it when they are really fast things. I don't know if I'll be able to from now on. I've worked really hard to even get where I am with regard to speed and I'm still not that great. It's because of my shoe-horn of a tongue!!!!!!!
Otherwise, school and singing is going well. I'm happy with school this semester, it's a completely different animal. People are being nice and the teachers love me and I feel like it's a supportive place. Yay!
Hello world!!!!