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Last Week: 199.2
Current Weight: 197.5 (-1.7lbs)
Current BMI: 33.9
High Weight: 208
Madeline goal: 185 (12.5lbs to go!)
10% goal: 177.3 (20.2lbs to go!)
Ultimate Goal by January 1, 2007: 142
Hours with Pete this week: 0 hours
Since the last time I updated, I have:
1. finished my thesis research
2. started my last semester of my undergraduate career
3. got sick
4. had my heart problems return on me
5. slept an average of 11hrs/day
6. die of exhaustion and palpitations everyday
7. ate like CRAP/had no appetite
8. lost weight
9. have not worked out at all :(
Needless to say, I haven't been feeling well at all. However, I finally got over the cold or whatever the heck I had on Monday. My heart seems a little bit better since I've been to the doctor, but my cardiologist appointment isn't until Tuesday and Wednesday of next week (I get two appointments, aren't I lucky?). So, until I meet with him, I was instructed NOT to work out at all by my other doctor. I even asked if I could work out less strenulously, and he said, "no." :( So, that has been making me really sad lately. There is talk of putting me on beta blockers which will then make my heartrate go down much lower; even when I exercise it won't go above 10 or something crazy like that. ...and while I'm excited to see how that feels, and my personal trainer seems to think this is a good idea for my work out regimen, I'm a little cautious. I mean, I know my heart shouldn't be beating THIS fast (resting: 100, walking around the house: 120, working out: 190+) but I don't like being on medicine-- especially crazy medicine that effects something so majorly. Last time the cardiologist said he could prescribe them to me if I wanted (5 years ago), but he wanted me to see if I could deal with it without medication. Which, I have...but lately it has been bothering me more. I think since he was rather hesitant about giving them to me, I'm hesitating now too. Either way, I guess I'll know what I'm doing by Thursday.
In the weightloss world, I've lost weight, but I feel disgusting and depressed lately. I feel so freaking fat...and depressed, not because I'm fat...but just because. I swear, when I work out, it changes my brain. It's like I need to work out to be happy. So even though I swear I feel live I've gained 20lbs since I've stopped working out a week ago, as I promised myself, I would take my measurements at the beginning of each month....and today is September 1....
neck: 14.5" (-.5")
bust: 42" (-1")
waist: 36" (-2")
hips: 44" (-1")
bicep: 14" (+1")
forearm: 9.5" (-1.5")
thigh: 24" (-1")
calf: 15.5" (-1")
Not bad I suppose. Last time I took my measurements I was a size 16 in Maggie Sottero, now I'm a size 14. In fact, my mom and I ordered ANOTHER wedding dress the other day. LOL...My other wedding dress was Maggie's Chantilly (in diamond white), which I got for $200 (amazing deal), which I love. But, Maggie just released her new dresses for Fall 2006 and I've been waiting for MONTHS to try on this one dress...and finally, it arrived at the store...and I sped there to finally try it on, and I loved it. :) It is called En Vogue, and I'm thrilled that I was able to order it in a size 14! horray! (I also ordered it in diamond white, so it will look less gold and more like a regular ivory color when I get it) It's SO pretty and I'm so proud of myself for waiting for it to come into the store--it was totally worth the wait once I got it on! It's not like any of the other dresses I've ever liked, I tended to stay away from big, poofy princess dresses and went with more plain dresses...but after thinking about it, I figure I'm only going to wear this beautiful dress for one day and I'm only going to get to be a "princess" for one day, so why not go all out? Anyway, I should get it in about 13 weeks, so around the beginning of December sometime. Talk about incentive to not overeat during the holidays!
Ok, so this entry started off really depressing, but now that I see how far I've come in such a short amount of time (about 2 months)...from a size 18 to a size 14 in wedding dresses...that makes me happy. And I get to marry my best friend who just-so-happens to love me just the way I am! How cool is that? Btw, we first fell in love when I was a 135lb, buff, little hottie...and then we got back together after I gained all of my weight from being sick. I'm lucky.
Current Weight: 197.5 (-1.7lbs)
Current BMI: 33.9
High Weight: 208
Madeline goal: 185 (12.5lbs to go!)
10% goal: 177.3 (20.2lbs to go!)
Ultimate Goal by January 1, 2007: 142
Hours with Pete this week: 0 hours
Since the last time I updated, I have:
1. finished my thesis research
2. started my last semester of my undergraduate career
3. got sick
4. had my heart problems return on me
5. slept an average of 11hrs/day
6. die of exhaustion and palpitations everyday
7. ate like CRAP/had no appetite
8. lost weight
9. have not worked out at all :(
Needless to say, I haven't been feeling well at all. However, I finally got over the cold or whatever the heck I had on Monday. My heart seems a little bit better since I've been to the doctor, but my cardiologist appointment isn't until Tuesday and Wednesday of next week (I get two appointments, aren't I lucky?). So, until I meet with him, I was instructed NOT to work out at all by my other doctor. I even asked if I could work out less strenulously, and he said, "no." :( So, that has been making me really sad lately. There is talk of putting me on beta blockers which will then make my heartrate go down much lower; even when I exercise it won't go above 10 or something crazy like that. ...and while I'm excited to see how that feels, and my personal trainer seems to think this is a good idea for my work out regimen, I'm a little cautious. I mean, I know my heart shouldn't be beating THIS fast (resting: 100, walking around the house: 120, working out: 190+) but I don't like being on medicine-- especially crazy medicine that effects something so majorly. Last time the cardiologist said he could prescribe them to me if I wanted (5 years ago), but he wanted me to see if I could deal with it without medication. Which, I have...but lately it has been bothering me more. I think since he was rather hesitant about giving them to me, I'm hesitating now too. Either way, I guess I'll know what I'm doing by Thursday.
In the weightloss world, I've lost weight, but I feel disgusting and depressed lately. I feel so freaking fat...and depressed, not because I'm fat...but just because. I swear, when I work out, it changes my brain. It's like I need to work out to be happy. So even though I swear I feel live I've gained 20lbs since I've stopped working out a week ago, as I promised myself, I would take my measurements at the beginning of each month....and today is September 1....
neck: 14.5" (-.5")
bust: 42" (-1")
waist: 36" (-2")
hips: 44" (-1")
bicep: 14" (+1")
forearm: 9.5" (-1.5")
thigh: 24" (-1")
calf: 15.5" (-1")
Not bad I suppose. Last time I took my measurements I was a size 16 in Maggie Sottero, now I'm a size 14. In fact, my mom and I ordered ANOTHER wedding dress the other day. LOL...My other wedding dress was Maggie's Chantilly (in diamond white), which I got for $200 (amazing deal), which I love. But, Maggie just released her new dresses for Fall 2006 and I've been waiting for MONTHS to try on this one dress...and finally, it arrived at the store...and I sped there to finally try it on, and I loved it. :) It is called En Vogue, and I'm thrilled that I was able to order it in a size 14! horray! (I also ordered it in diamond white, so it will look less gold and more like a regular ivory color when I get it) It's SO pretty and I'm so proud of myself for waiting for it to come into the store--it was totally worth the wait once I got it on! It's not like any of the other dresses I've ever liked, I tended to stay away from big, poofy princess dresses and went with more plain dresses...but after thinking about it, I figure I'm only going to wear this beautiful dress for one day and I'm only going to get to be a "princess" for one day, so why not go all out? Anyway, I should get it in about 13 weeks, so around the beginning of December sometime. Talk about incentive to not overeat during the holidays!
Ok, so this entry started off really depressing, but now that I see how far I've come in such a short amount of time (about 2 months)...from a size 18 to a size 14 in wedding dresses...that makes me happy. And I get to marry my best friend who just-so-happens to love me just the way I am! How cool is that? Btw, we first fell in love when I was a 135lb, buff, little hottie...and then we got back together after I gained all of my weight from being sick. I'm lucky.