fucking lies and bullshit
ALL FUCKING LIES ALL HE DOES IS LIE TO ME WHAT THE FUCK I AM SO SICK OF LISTENING TO HIS FUCKING LIES, HE APOLOGIZES ONE DAY AND TELLS ME HE WANTS TO BE BACK TOGETHER THEN HE SAYS SOMETHING DIFFERENT THE VERY NEXT DAY, WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID WHY DID I TAKE HIM BACK ALL THOSE TIMES.... HE WRITES ME ALL THIS BULLSHIT AFTER WE BREAK UP AND I ACTUALLY BELIEVED HIM... I AM SO STUPID, I HAVE FINALLY CUT HIM OUT OF MY LIFE COMPLETELY I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM IN A WEEK, I AM TRYING TO BE STRONG AND NOT TALK TO HIM... HEY MAYBE I WILL MAKE A LIST OF 50 THINGS THAT I HATE ABOUT HIM, IT DIDNT HELP JEREMY BUT MAYBE IT WILL HELP ME LOL....
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stonesorrow1
2004-10-07 08:16 (from 205.188.116.66) (link) Select
memories, thoughts, dreams
you would think they would fade...
but they dont..
you would think the memorie of you and everything we one were would slip away with time....
but it doesnt
they get stronger day by day
nights have almost become unberiable
the love you and i once had
the feeling of you by my side
knowing you and seeing that look in you eyes
i would give my life for just one moment
one second to be able to feel you.
dispair, regrets
what am i to say
i am an ass and so much more
i long for you
i still need you
you still are the only person i will love
i couldnt live with her when i was always think for you
wishing it was you
jessica i need you but i also know i have to live with what happen
so if it must be i will live the rest of my life thinking of you
longing for you because i dont want to be with no one but you.
everlasting love 1
distant memories of things that would never be
a lost soul, lost in the deep obyss
wandering from thought to thought
place to place
person to person
having no care
trusting no one
i was lost but yet i was shure of life
then you came along
and fliped my world upside down
you left my me speechless
everything i ever hoped for
everything i ever dreamed of and prayed for
you were it
you were there when no one would be
you stayed when no one elce would
you loved me and i hurt you...
now i am here
and after it all your still here
standing by my side
the love i feel for you will never stop
the pain i put you through
it will never amount to the pain i carry inside
i am sorry for hurting you
i am sorry for never being there
sitting here thinking
what did i do to deserve you
i love you....
both of these are dedicated to jessica holbrook
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stonesorrow1
2004-10-07 09:04 (from 172.162.248.101) (link) Select
it is you and you are right you always were. all thoses fights you would think that it would of tore us appart but it never did you would of thought i wouldnt miss it but i do. it put this feeling in me abouth you that i cannot let go i cannot get you out of my mind. i lie awake at night thinking of you and when i sleep i dream of you . like last night i hade a dream about you i cant remember what happened but i know it was you.. or like the other day when you called and i was going to wark that morning i was longing to be next to you just to talk to you to see your face..
i made the biggest mistake of my life leting you go and i am going to do everythinng in my power to get you back by my side. i am not going to give up on us i not going to live the rest of my life thinking about you and the what if i am not going to let it happen. i was ment to be with you and i know you dont feel it now but at one point you knew you were ment to be with me. i hurt you more than i will ever know but i do know what i am going through and i deserve everything i am going through i welcome it why?
because thats my way of never forgeting what we had . i love you to death and i always will i'm not leaving to california without you i am not leaving state if i dont have you. i would follow you to the ends of the earth just to stay friends and be able to see you. i want you i need you i long for you but i know if i dont find a way for you to see i have changed. yes i know that i said it before but i want to show you i want you to give me a chance as afriend and let my show you that i truley care that i am just a human and i do love you and would never hurt you again.. i dont know what elce to say i think about you everyday and this feeling of longing for you gets stronger and stronger every moment im not by your side.. please call me i am trying to find you but your a hard person to track down... do you ever think of me...call my house if i am not home whatever # you call from i will call back
i work only 4 to 6 hours at a time so try to stay by the # you call from.. i dont care what anyone says i have changed for the better and fuck anyone who says different i know how i am and who i want to be but i dont want to be that person without you
i love you and always will
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[everlasting love2
stonesorrow1
2004-10-07 08:16 (from 205.188.116.66) (link) Select
memories, thoughts, dreams
you would think they would fade...
but they dont..
you would think the memorie of you and everything we one were would slip away with time....
but it doesnt
they get stronger day by day
nights have almost become unberiable
the love you and i once had
the feeling of you by my side
knowing you and seeing that look in you eyes
i would give my life for just one moment
one second to be able to feel you.
dispair, regrets
what am i to say
i am an ass and so much more
i long for you
i still need you
you still are the only person i will love
i couldnt live with her when i was always think for you
wishing it was you
jessica i need you but i also know i have to live with what happen
so if it must be i will live the rest of my life thinking of you
longing for you because i dont want to be with no one but you.
everlasting love 1
distant memories of things that would never be
a lost soul, lost in the deep obyss
wandering from thought to thought
place to place
person to person
having no care
trusting no one
i was lost but yet i was shure of life
then you came along
and fliped my world upside down
you left my me speechless
everything i ever hoped for
everything i ever dreamed of and prayed for
you were it
you were there when no one would be
you stayed when no one elce would
you loved me and i hurt you...
now i am here
and after it all your still here
standing by my side
the love i feel for you will never stop
the pain i put you through
it will never amount to the pain i carry inside
i am sorry for hurting you
i am sorry for never being there
sitting here thinking
what did i do to deserve you
i love you....
both of these are dedicated to jessica holbrook
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stonesorrow1
2004-10-07 09:04 (from 172.162.248.101) (link) Select
it is you and you are right you always were. all thoses fights you would think that it would of tore us appart but it never did you would of thought i wouldnt miss it but i do. it put this feeling in me abouth you that i cannot let go i cannot get you out of my mind. i lie awake at night thinking of you and when i sleep i dream of you . like last night i hade a dream about you i cant remember what happened but i know it was you.. or like the other day when you called and i was going to wark that morning i was longing to be next to you just to talk to you to see your face..
i made the biggest mistake of my life leting you go and i am going to do everythinng in my power to get you back by my side. i am not going to give up on us i not going to live the rest of my life thinking about you and the what if i am not going to let it happen. i was ment to be with you and i know you dont feel it now but at one point you knew you were ment to be with me. i hurt you more than i will ever know but i do know what i am going through and i deserve everything i am going through i welcome it why?
because thats my way of never forgeting what we had . i love you to death and i always will i'm not leaving to california without you i am not leaving state if i dont have you. i would follow you to the ends of the earth just to stay friends and be able to see you. i want you i need you i long for you but i know if i dont find a way for you to see i have changed. yes i know that i said it before but i want to show you i want you to give me a chance as afriend and let my show you that i truley care that i am just a human and i do love you and would never hurt you again.. i dont know what elce to say i think about you everyday and this feeling of longing for you gets stronger and stronger every moment im not by your side.. please call me i am trying to find you but your a hard person to track down... do you ever think of me...call my house if i am not home whatever # you call from i will call back
i work only 4 to 6 hours at a time so try to stay by the # you call from.. i dont care what anyone says i have changed for the better and fuck anyone who says different i know how i am and who i want to be but i dont want to be that person without you
i love you and always will
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