Bang bang you gon' gon' it
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Too much to for real write down and in truth I do not even want to revisit much of it. I know what was done and what I had to do. It helped to learn a lot of things. I am learning more and growing more through societal changes. Through relationship changes. This has been a rough year, since last August. I have been through so much change and personal growth. It is amazing. The need to remind myself that I am not as alone as I think always reveals itself at the most interesting of times. At my lowest of times. Times when I think my only answer is to kill myself. But I find that comes from feeling completely defeated within myself. That my ego will not allow me to shed my armor. No one has succeeded completely on their own.
I have surrounded myself with great, powerful, and strong friends. Their strength has truly been my pillar through this whole ordeal. I feel as if I am Rocky Balboa reaching the top of the stairs. Lame analogy but I just feel accomplished. I feel grown up. I'm not worried about my future.
I am looking forward to moving into my new spot. I'm glad I can pay for it on my own. I'm gonna work hard on stabilizing my finances. So far, so good. I'm doing well at saving. My impulsiveness has decreased significantly. I am grateful. I'm not even bothered by my job...much. I don't hate it. It definitely do not want to do it forever, but it is good income. Everything is good.
I am fine.
*Loving this new Janet Jackson album*
Too much to for real write down and in truth I do not even want to revisit much of it. I know what was done and what I had to do. It helped to learn a lot of things. I am learning more and growing more through societal changes. Through relationship changes. This has been a rough year, since last August. I have been through so much change and personal growth. It is amazing. The need to remind myself that I am not as alone as I think always reveals itself at the most interesting of times. At my lowest of times. Times when I think my only answer is to kill myself. But I find that comes from feeling completely defeated within myself. That my ego will not allow me to shed my armor. No one has succeeded completely on their own.
I have surrounded myself with great, powerful, and strong friends. Their strength has truly been my pillar through this whole ordeal. I feel as if I am Rocky Balboa reaching the top of the stairs. Lame analogy but I just feel accomplished. I feel grown up. I'm not worried about my future.
I am looking forward to moving into my new spot. I'm glad I can pay for it on my own. I'm gonna work hard on stabilizing my finances. So far, so good. I'm doing well at saving. My impulsiveness has decreased significantly. I am grateful. I'm not even bothered by my job...much. I don't hate it. It definitely do not want to do it forever, but it is good income. Everything is good.
I am fine.
*Loving this new Janet Jackson album*