I know I have this wall ( Read more... )

She has been sick basically since the start of summer and in the last day has gone extremely down hill. She stopped breathing and is in the hospital and they are running tests trying to figure out what is wrong.

Instead of calling and pestering her parents with questions feel free to call me or leave me a message(763-257-2236). I will be getting an ( Read more... )

I'm ready to move forward...and I finally am able to. Hopefully all goes well! More independence will be awesome. Coming home from college and having to check in all the time and put up with all the other shit.

i am scared and nervous. Also, ecstatic and happy. So many emotions and I just cannot figure out what to do.

What do you do when you've lost the most stable thing in your life? Especially when it was the best thing to do and relieve their pain...

My best friend
I love her so
I admire her strength
Most don't know
the courage she has
most pretend
they dislike
they don't know
she's scared
me too
I feel helpless for her
everyday to the fullest
achieving dreams
skipping childhood
let's grow fast
no time to waste

I know that it may sadden you to see those words, but that is from March 2005. You can get past ( Read more... )

It's been almost five years since I started this livejournal. What a journey it has been. In the beginning I posted all the time and now it is really rare for me. I think I have realized that in high school I cared so much that other people knew everything going on with me although, most of the things posted weren't the things that were really ( Read more... )

Paul lecturing about the Gunpowder Empire and Osman..."Who was a little bit country and a little bit rock and roll ( Read more... )

I have a secret side, it only comes out when I am thinking and alone.

It confuses me...

I feel like I didn't

like I didn't do what I should have

I didn't do enough

I didn't try hard enough

Such a prestigious figure

Without much thought

Trying for convenience

I would change all of it

Change all of it for you

You deserve

You deserve so much better

Much better than I offered

Much better than my attempts

A wonderful woman

Such a wonderful women

I didn' ( Read more... )

I wish things didn't have to be this way...although I know it is for the best. You won't be in pain anymore. I am so sorry that I wasn't as great a s I could have been but, I am coming home to try and make it right. Please hold on until then...please...