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So, things with Jimmy didn't work out. I don't think that we're really good together, but it's cool because we're both good staying friends. Things with PJ got more retarded. I realized what I needed to figure out and thought that maybe trying again would be good. I'll always love him, after all. However, he doesn't want to be with me. It was hard, but I've accepted having him as just a friend because I don't want to completely lose him. Talking to him lately has helped me get over him quicker... he's changing into someone I really wouldn't want to be with and he's become too indecisive with shit. He doesn't make any sense, either. I told him stuff happened with Jimmy coz I'm not going to be dishonest. He said he's jealous but he still doesn't want to be with me. I'm like, whatever dude. I'm not going to sit around and mope or wait for him and pass up what might be a chance at happiness with someone else, because I really don't think there is a chance of him wanting me back. He says he wants to but he doesn't. So I'm not going to waste my time and make myself unhappy. I'm moving out of Helen's. Her mom is driving me crazy. The rules and all that are getting to be too much. I'm not allowed to use the computer unless it's for work or something along those lines. As she put it, every 'toy' in this house (TV, computer, whatever) isn't for me. All I have here is a roof over my head and food (which I've eaten here like twice since I moved in, so I'm not even using that). I know I'm not really wanted here and I need to be in a place where I am, where I can have support.
So, I'm moving in with my dad. He's been trying to talk me into it for a while and I feel that it would be best. I mean, I could spend time with Robert (baby bro) and Rissa (youngest sis) and actually be treated as an adult. Not only that, but he doesn't want me to pay rent because he wants me to be able to save up right away. I think he might want me there because he didn't have me as a kid, and I think it would be a good way for us to build a stronger relationsip as father and daughter. So I'm excited about that. His girlfriend Melody is really cool, too. She's easy to talk to and she has her head on straight. I would have my own room and actually have privacy, rather than sharing a room with Helen and Georgia (foreign exchange student from Italy). I'm going to tell him tomorrow, so I will probably be moved out by this weekend or next.
I'm trying to help my mom out as much as I can because she just had surgery on her shoulder. She had bone spurs and it started tearing into her muscles and all that. I feel bad for her because when I went over there to help her out and play with Antonio, since he doesn't really have that anymore because she's the one who always played with him, I offered to put her hair up in a ponytail for her because I know it was probably bothering her with how long it is. She seemed like she was about to cry. Thinking about how hard it must be to not be able to do simple tasks by yourself like drying off after a shower or putting your hair up or anything like that makes me realize how lucky I am. Sure, things are hard. I'm tired, work my ass off for almost no pay, and just have a lot of stress, but I'm still functional.
I should be able
So, I'm moving in with my dad. He's been trying to talk me into it for a while and I feel that it would be best. I mean, I could spend time with Robert (baby bro) and Rissa (youngest sis) and actually be treated as an adult. Not only that, but he doesn't want me to pay rent because he wants me to be able to save up right away. I think he might want me there because he didn't have me as a kid, and I think it would be a good way for us to build a stronger relationsip as father and daughter. So I'm excited about that. His girlfriend Melody is really cool, too. She's easy to talk to and she has her head on straight. I would have my own room and actually have privacy, rather than sharing a room with Helen and Georgia (foreign exchange student from Italy). I'm going to tell him tomorrow, so I will probably be moved out by this weekend or next.
I'm trying to help my mom out as much as I can because she just had surgery on her shoulder. She had bone spurs and it started tearing into her muscles and all that. I feel bad for her because when I went over there to help her out and play with Antonio, since he doesn't really have that anymore because she's the one who always played with him, I offered to put her hair up in a ponytail for her because I know it was probably bothering her with how long it is. She seemed like she was about to cry. Thinking about how hard it must be to not be able to do simple tasks by yourself like drying off after a shower or putting your hair up or anything like that makes me realize how lucky I am. Sure, things are hard. I'm tired, work my ass off for almost no pay, and just have a lot of stress, but I'm still functional.
I should be able