Nearly at the end of the week :)
Hiya everyone,
Well I have had a difficult morning so far but am feeling fairly positive. The past week was not a good one for a variety of reasons. But it is nearly over, thank goodness!!!!
I found a DVD I had been looking for this morning. One containing all the digital images on my old computer, the one my Ex husband has now. I had been looking for it and finally found it this morning, so first thing I did was put it in the computer, copy the images and start looking through them.... I was not expecting it to hurt so much, took me completely by surprise. Why does the past have this power over us? I know it is a power that we give it, just did not expect to be side-swiped that early on in the morning. I do have the habit of trying not to think about my old life in the UK. I just can't deal with it at times. So when I am reminded of it, the hurt is unexpected. Not sure how to get over that. I guess, as with anything else, it is just time. I was delayed by quite a while trying to get myself back into order and further delayed by having to get a maintenance guy to unblock my sink (sigh) and other stuff, which is not really a great start to the day. It had better improve quickly!
People spend so much time dwelling on the past. I am trying desperately not to do just that. I have to move on and fill my life with pleasant stuff. So looking forward to the weekend :) and spending time with a person that is a tremendously positive influence in my life and makes me smile even when I am at my lowest (yes, Sox, i mean you :) But part of me wonders if, by saving myself hurt now so that I can actually function on a day to day basis, I am just covering it over and not dealing with it. Will this come back to bite me in the future? Or will the wound heal clean so that one day I can look back and appreciate what I had without the regret for its loss. I truly don't know. I just know that I want some happiness for at least a little while. Roll on the weekend :)
Well I have had a difficult morning so far but am feeling fairly positive. The past week was not a good one for a variety of reasons. But it is nearly over, thank goodness!!!!
I found a DVD I had been looking for this morning. One containing all the digital images on my old computer, the one my Ex husband has now. I had been looking for it and finally found it this morning, so first thing I did was put it in the computer, copy the images and start looking through them.... I was not expecting it to hurt so much, took me completely by surprise. Why does the past have this power over us? I know it is a power that we give it, just did not expect to be side-swiped that early on in the morning. I do have the habit of trying not to think about my old life in the UK. I just can't deal with it at times. So when I am reminded of it, the hurt is unexpected. Not sure how to get over that. I guess, as with anything else, it is just time. I was delayed by quite a while trying to get myself back into order and further delayed by having to get a maintenance guy to unblock my sink (sigh) and other stuff, which is not really a great start to the day. It had better improve quickly!
People spend so much time dwelling on the past. I am trying desperately not to do just that. I have to move on and fill my life with pleasant stuff. So looking forward to the weekend :) and spending time with a person that is a tremendously positive influence in my life and makes me smile even when I am at my lowest (yes, Sox, i mean you :) But part of me wonders if, by saving myself hurt now so that I can actually function on a day to day basis, I am just covering it over and not dealing with it. Will this come back to bite me in the future? Or will the wound heal clean so that one day I can look back and appreciate what I had without the regret for its loss. I truly don't know. I just know that I want some happiness for at least a little while. Roll on the weekend :)