weekend and other stuff
Well, Socalsox has given you a pretty good summary of the weekend and I am definately not going to try to top it or repeat everything we did.
The highlights for me this weekend were definately seeing Skitabug, Fischsticks and of course Socalsox again. They are all such great people, I am honoured to know them. It was also good meeting the Demonsix crew, I am completely in awe of your rope work.
The whole of saturday evening was fun, the meal, driving back and laughing hilariously at the route we had chosen to take back and Socalsox's impersonations of Arnold Schwarzenegger, and of course getting ready and going to the Lair.
The Lair was great and watching the rope work was very impressive. The patterns being created were beautiful, especially the one Fischsticks created on Skitabug, tieing her arms so her hand were crossed on her chest. :) It is a form of artwork, with a really great kinky side :D
I played in public for the first time. I was nervous and I didn't think I had gone into subspace until Sox took me down from the cross. I really must learn to come round faster, lol, it took me quite a long time. Actually being flogged triggered something, not entirely sure what, and I was crying quite a bit during and afterwards. Sox had warned me this might happen and he was great about it. I did enjoy the experience though :) and I am unable to quite explain why I was upset. It might have been due to that time of the month, I do tend to get upset around then and I was definately more sensitive than usual. It might have been that but I think there was also an element involving my recent past history. I don't know, but the experience was certainly interesting.
While holding me afterwards Sox tried to encourage me to watch an impressive rope suspension while I was coming round, but all I cared about was having his arms around me. That was the best part. None of my previous partners has just held me like that before. It really meant something to me and made me feel safe. I certainly wasn't going to interrupt that just to watch a mere rope suspension :)
I was kind of out of it most of the rest of the evening. I enjoyed the brief amount of time that I spent kneeling at Sox's feet while he was sitting in the lion chair. The issue with the domme coming onto Sox while he was holding me was described pretty well in Sox's blog, so i won't repeat, but it was rude and disrespectful to both of us and I felt bad that she put Sox in a position where he had to make it pretty clear he wasn't interested.
Breakfast was fun and Ironman was just so cool!!! A really fun film that i enjoyed immensely, and the fact we were in a great cinema and I was with a really great group of people meant that I had a brilliant time. Definately have to repeat it for Indy IV.
The afternoon spent with Sox was really (really, really) nice and I was sad to see him go and the weekend come to a close.
I have been dreading Monday's quite a bit until today. I actually had a really good day. I spent yesterday evening chatting with an old friend of mine and it was really good being able to talk to him after not speaking for about three weeks and not in depth for a couple of months. And today I was happy. I realised that i love the line of work I am in, electron microscopy, and you know? i am a really good electron microscopist. This realisation came about as i was talking to the EM technician here, i was talking about some of the latest technologies with her etc and realised that this was me, in my element so completely. The woman I had been talking to was quite amazed actually. She has been in EM for decades and she said that the enthusiasm I had for the subject was so evident, that i shouldn't stay here and waste myself doing "old" microscopy techniques, but that i was a really valuable person. She is right!! This job is turning out to be less than I expected and I am getting fed up of the bickering and bitchiness in the lab. I will stay until the end of my contract (yearly renewable) but will be looking elsewhere. I don't think I will stay here (this particular lab I mean, I want to stay in the USA) unless i can change it from finishing off projects that other people have initiated into project that I am interested in and, more to the point, am in control of. Because that is when I thrive. And that is what I want from my career.
So I am feeling really good, after a good day and excellent weekend. "... the future is coming on..."
The highlights for me this weekend were definately seeing Skitabug, Fischsticks and of course Socalsox again. They are all such great people, I am honoured to know them. It was also good meeting the Demonsix crew, I am completely in awe of your rope work.
The whole of saturday evening was fun, the meal, driving back and laughing hilariously at the route we had chosen to take back and Socalsox's impersonations of Arnold Schwarzenegger, and of course getting ready and going to the Lair.
The Lair was great and watching the rope work was very impressive. The patterns being created were beautiful, especially the one Fischsticks created on Skitabug, tieing her arms so her hand were crossed on her chest. :) It is a form of artwork, with a really great kinky side :D
I played in public for the first time. I was nervous and I didn't think I had gone into subspace until Sox took me down from the cross. I really must learn to come round faster, lol, it took me quite a long time. Actually being flogged triggered something, not entirely sure what, and I was crying quite a bit during and afterwards. Sox had warned me this might happen and he was great about it. I did enjoy the experience though :) and I am unable to quite explain why I was upset. It might have been due to that time of the month, I do tend to get upset around then and I was definately more sensitive than usual. It might have been that but I think there was also an element involving my recent past history. I don't know, but the experience was certainly interesting.
While holding me afterwards Sox tried to encourage me to watch an impressive rope suspension while I was coming round, but all I cared about was having his arms around me. That was the best part. None of my previous partners has just held me like that before. It really meant something to me and made me feel safe. I certainly wasn't going to interrupt that just to watch a mere rope suspension :)
I was kind of out of it most of the rest of the evening. I enjoyed the brief amount of time that I spent kneeling at Sox's feet while he was sitting in the lion chair. The issue with the domme coming onto Sox while he was holding me was described pretty well in Sox's blog, so i won't repeat, but it was rude and disrespectful to both of us and I felt bad that she put Sox in a position where he had to make it pretty clear he wasn't interested.
Breakfast was fun and Ironman was just so cool!!! A really fun film that i enjoyed immensely, and the fact we were in a great cinema and I was with a really great group of people meant that I had a brilliant time. Definately have to repeat it for Indy IV.
The afternoon spent with Sox was really (really, really) nice and I was sad to see him go and the weekend come to a close.
I have been dreading Monday's quite a bit until today. I actually had a really good day. I spent yesterday evening chatting with an old friend of mine and it was really good being able to talk to him after not speaking for about three weeks and not in depth for a couple of months. And today I was happy. I realised that i love the line of work I am in, electron microscopy, and you know? i am a really good electron microscopist. This realisation came about as i was talking to the EM technician here, i was talking about some of the latest technologies with her etc and realised that this was me, in my element so completely. The woman I had been talking to was quite amazed actually. She has been in EM for decades and she said that the enthusiasm I had for the subject was so evident, that i shouldn't stay here and waste myself doing "old" microscopy techniques, but that i was a really valuable person. She is right!! This job is turning out to be less than I expected and I am getting fed up of the bickering and bitchiness in the lab. I will stay until the end of my contract (yearly renewable) but will be looking elsewhere. I don't think I will stay here (this particular lab I mean, I want to stay in the USA) unless i can change it from finishing off projects that other people have initiated into project that I am interested in and, more to the point, am in control of. Because that is when I thrive. And that is what I want from my career.
So I am feeling really good, after a good day and excellent weekend. "... the future is coming on..."