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But your the one he rushes home to, your the one he gave his name to, i never see his face in the early morning light, you have his mornings, his day times, and sometimes I have his nights.
So I come back unpack my shit and look around...once again i'm ready to turn and run. Sit down and make yourself comfortable if your reading this, because it's not going to be short...most likely won't be sweet either.
So we all know about the great fuck up I was with Trace, I left Trace because I was confused. Then something happened with Nick...the one everyone is now in love with. -shrugs and sighs- that's alright, it's better I know now, then before I went to vegas. What everyone didn't know, well besides J, is that I wanted to be with Trace.
I will always want to be with Trace. He is the one guy...wait there are only two guys that can hold me in their arms and make me feel completely safe. Trace happens to be one of them. Trace if your reading this, you know how i feel, you know how sorry I am, and you also know i'm always going to be here for you, even if it's only as a friend. -smiles-
Now there is another guy, NO-ONE except himself, knows about...-bites bottom lip- he is the other guy who makes me feel safe, and he knows who he is. He has been my secret affair for awhile now...-looks around- thank you for always being that babe, it means a lot to me...even though I know it's wrong.
but when he's with me he says he needs me, and that he wants me, that he believes in me...I should not be ashamed...and i, i have nothing again.
Then -looks down- there was...-pauses- another guy. I guess I was just rebound to him. -shrugs- as long as he is happy now it's cool, and you know who you are. You want to be friends? Whatever, we can be the type of friends that don't talk ok?
Oh one more thing to people. Justin...you are one of the greatest male friends I could ever ask for. You don't have to put up with me and you do. There has not been one time that I was in trouble or needed someone to talk to that you weren't there for. Thank you so much J...
You got a problem with the way that I am, they say i'm trouble and I don't give a damn, cause when i'm bad, i know i'm better, i just wanna get loose and turn it up for you
Alright back to my great update now that you have read all that. -laughs- So I came back, only because...I couldn't stay away. You can't run forever. But yet i'm ready to start again.
I made a mistake. -laughs weakly- what else is new there? Anyway I probably hurt one of my best friends by doing it...and she know's i'm sorry for it, if she believes me -shrugs- that I don't know.
Blah nevermind i basiclly filled you all in on the upper part of my update, i'll write more when I can think straight about how to write it all out...
~Jessy
So I come back unpack my shit and look around...once again i'm ready to turn and run. Sit down and make yourself comfortable if your reading this, because it's not going to be short...most likely won't be sweet either.
So we all know about the great fuck up I was with Trace, I left Trace because I was confused. Then something happened with Nick...the one everyone is now in love with. -shrugs and sighs- that's alright, it's better I know now, then before I went to vegas. What everyone didn't know, well besides J, is that I wanted to be with Trace.
I will always want to be with Trace. He is the one guy...wait there are only two guys that can hold me in their arms and make me feel completely safe. Trace happens to be one of them. Trace if your reading this, you know how i feel, you know how sorry I am, and you also know i'm always going to be here for you, even if it's only as a friend. -smiles-
Now there is another guy, NO-ONE except himself, knows about...-bites bottom lip- he is the other guy who makes me feel safe, and he knows who he is. He has been my secret affair for awhile now...-looks around- thank you for always being that babe, it means a lot to me...even though I know it's wrong.
but when he's with me he says he needs me, and that he wants me, that he believes in me...I should not be ashamed...and i, i have nothing again.
Then -looks down- there was...-pauses- another guy. I guess I was just rebound to him. -shrugs- as long as he is happy now it's cool, and you know who you are. You want to be friends? Whatever, we can be the type of friends that don't talk ok?
Oh one more thing to people. Justin...you are one of the greatest male friends I could ever ask for. You don't have to put up with me and you do. There has not been one time that I was in trouble or needed someone to talk to that you weren't there for. Thank you so much J...
You got a problem with the way that I am, they say i'm trouble and I don't give a damn, cause when i'm bad, i know i'm better, i just wanna get loose and turn it up for you
Alright back to my great update now that you have read all that. -laughs- So I came back, only because...I couldn't stay away. You can't run forever. But yet i'm ready to start again.
I made a mistake. -laughs weakly- what else is new there? Anyway I probably hurt one of my best friends by doing it...and she know's i'm sorry for it, if she believes me -shrugs- that I don't know.
Blah nevermind i basiclly filled you all in on the upper part of my update, i'll write more when I can think straight about how to write it all out...
~Jessy