An overly dramatic rant
Well as per usual when its time for me to go to bed my mind decides its time to start working.
Sometimes I think about how I'm never going to get enough money to go on the HUGE holiday that Kit and I want to go on.
The other night I was seized with the idea that I should hunt down all my old friends from Hallet Cove, I even got the phone book out and started writing down a million numbers for each person, I came up with the idea that I was at University writing an essay on "Is life handed up to the popular people on a silver plater"
I was really set up on the idea, of course then I went to sleep and when I woke up and was like.. umm what were you thinking?
Well tonight, I went to bed, got comfy thought hey I might actually get to sleep before 4am and then my mind when HELLO! And I started thinking about how some people in my life have left without saying goodbye, just stopped being there without thinking that I might not want them to leave.
I started writing a little letter in my personal journal, a little goodbye to them all. But I kept getting confused and it wasn't flowing, there just didnt seem to be a way to say goodbye to them all in one letter, all my feelings for these people can not be molded into one letter for the whole bunch.
So instead of trying to write this silly thing for them all, I decided to write here and tell all the people I love who are with me now about this silly problem.
Anyway writing a letter to people who have left and who don't care and who will never read it, well its just not going to work. I know how I feel about them all and writing a letter to get it out wont change anything. So instead I'm just going to say goodbye to them here. It wont change how I feel.. but I think it will give me some closure.
So..
Goodbye, live a good life and just be happy.
Sometimes I think about how I'm never going to get enough money to go on the HUGE holiday that Kit and I want to go on.
The other night I was seized with the idea that I should hunt down all my old friends from Hallet Cove, I even got the phone book out and started writing down a million numbers for each person, I came up with the idea that I was at University writing an essay on "Is life handed up to the popular people on a silver plater"
I was really set up on the idea, of course then I went to sleep and when I woke up and was like.. umm what were you thinking?
Well tonight, I went to bed, got comfy thought hey I might actually get to sleep before 4am and then my mind when HELLO! And I started thinking about how some people in my life have left without saying goodbye, just stopped being there without thinking that I might not want them to leave.
I started writing a little letter in my personal journal, a little goodbye to them all. But I kept getting confused and it wasn't flowing, there just didnt seem to be a way to say goodbye to them all in one letter, all my feelings for these people can not be molded into one letter for the whole bunch.
So instead of trying to write this silly thing for them all, I decided to write here and tell all the people I love who are with me now about this silly problem.
Anyway writing a letter to people who have left and who don't care and who will never read it, well its just not going to work. I know how I feel about them all and writing a letter to get it out wont change anything. So instead I'm just going to say goodbye to them here. It wont change how I feel.. but I think it will give me some closure.
So..
Goodbye, live a good life and just be happy.