Life goes on!
Well I think I may have found a place for me. I need to speak to the guy sometime tomorrow. Ofcourse it's in Ann Arbor. I better neighborhood. Everything with Bryan has come to an end. I love Bryan with all my heart and would have done anything for him. But I've come to a part of my life where I need to start taking care of myself more than others. Over the months I've seen how much he loves me, but the jealousy, violent, aggressive, and no motivation part of him made worn out. I've seen him change over the months, but most of the things that troubled our relationship were still there. I wish we could be together but it seems that relationship isn't going nowhere. He says once we find a place together things will be different. I believe it will, but my mind and body is getting to tired and stressed. I know he doesn't mean to do the things he does, but he needs to learn to control it. Because instead of bringing us together, it's just making us grow apart. I just don't like how every fight and arguement we have is because I always start it. I can't handle it anymore. I know I love him. But we just can't be together anymore. Right now he is back in Toledo because I dropped him off to his grandmother. But there is more to it. By him going to Toledo made my whole body drop. I just need to get back on my feet and move on. By the way Bryan, while we were together I never cheated on you. I love you way to much to ever do that. I'm hoping I get one of the 2 places tomorrow so I can move in by Monday and start a whole new life over.
I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
-Alfred Tennyson