Therapy + Drama = Not so Therapeutic?? Bit of a vent session
So my hot boy therapy came for another visit... which in itself, is great!
The visit itself... ehh, so so.
First off, he came a day earlier... original plan was that he'd show up on the Sunday ...I didn't end up getting called into work through the day on Saturday so at 2pm I told him that and he changed his plans and caught the 7pm boat over from the mainland. Suited me just fine, I picked him up at quarter to 9, got him home and at 9:30pm the phone rang & I got called into work for an hour and a half. >.< Emergency with coworker... food poisoning, all that. So, I left for work for a brief time, the whole time I was there I did NOT want to be at work (Sorry boss) ...lets face it, I had a cute guy in my bed back at home!! Got home, did a few shots (he didn't) and we downloaded a movie to watch ... did our thing, and then when we were in the shower his phone started going off. (This was at about 3am I think?) He ignored it but it kept on going off... I went to sleep & figured he would too except that I sleep through everything so I didn't realize his phone was still going off... all night long.
Apparently the drama he had told me about on his first visit (Married woman wanting to jump his bones) had escalated. Her husband had found some of the txts she'd sent him and believed that they were 'involved' (to put it politely). Result of that is that my hot guy therapy spent the entire night, sitting beside me in bed, stressed and fretting for his own safety and his families safety and upset in general because he felt like he was "doing the time for a crime he didn't commit" so to speak. So, I didn't sleep well because lets face it, its hard to sleep when a bundle of awake and nervous energy is there beside you. Woke up Sunday morning & drove him to the cop shop because he wanted to talk to them about the threats & harassment and we got there only to find out that they aren't open on weekends... lol
Most of Sunday was spent trying to deal with the "issue" -- I got to see facebook messages, and text messages, and had to try to be some form of external (ie not involved) pillar of support which was fine, I'd do that for any one of my friends... drove him out to Costco later on in the afternoon to meet up with one of his other friends (guy in his 70's) who was his mentor when he was younger. Left the two of them to have a nice chat & I went and read the books, gave them some privacy (as much as one can in a public place). Then we went to the staff party. Which was dull... rather dull... Which is too bad. Ummmm.... went home, did our thing again, after downloading more movies to watch...
Monday I let him drive, and we went to the cop shop yet again because he really wanted to talk to an officer face to face, he ended up talking to the victim services counter.... We also went to the mall, and got his phone recharged & he got to talk to the husband and get that sorted out. We also shopped for his sister. Have I mentioned that I hate drama, and I hate malls? And I REALLY hate malls at Christmas time.
I feel sort of bad because I was left with the feeling of "Uhhh, this is so not what I signed up for." -- The other aspect of all of that weekend was that he was telling everybody I'm his gf. But he was telling me that its just fake, which is fine I suppose... except that it did temporarily tempt my brain into thinking of pondering 'what if' scenarios. I've decided not to ponder them though ....and the more I think about it the less I like the whole 'fake gf' scenario in general. I think there may have been other motives behind that "possibly" but don't believe enough to put any weight behind that so am not going to bank on it. I do care about him, it sucks that this drama had to fuck with our weekend, it sucks that he had to go through it at all... The whole thing just sucks.
By the end of the weekend I felt completely oversocialized and didn't want anything to do with anybody and then ended up getting kidnapped (or so I call it)
Now I'm in the heat of my work & just want to curl up in bed and hide from the world.... I worked Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Today (Friday) and Christmas Day -- And then I'm not sure what's up Boxing Day I Forget... I'm going 1 day to the next right now.
I guess right now I'm just struggling to hold onto ... I don't even know what. I got involved with this guy because I was fed up with the overly emotional men that I'd been dealing with in my life previously. I didn't want drama. Then, I get drama, and I have to deal with it, and it isn't even my drama to have to deal with. The only thing worse than having drama to deal with in your own life, is having someone else's drama to deal with. LOL
Maybe I'm just not relationship material, who knows.
Ugh. I'm going to get some sleep its 2am.
Merry Christmas everyone.
Love T
The visit itself... ehh, so so.
First off, he came a day earlier... original plan was that he'd show up on the Sunday ...I didn't end up getting called into work through the day on Saturday so at 2pm I told him that and he changed his plans and caught the 7pm boat over from the mainland. Suited me just fine, I picked him up at quarter to 9, got him home and at 9:30pm the phone rang & I got called into work for an hour and a half. >.< Emergency with coworker... food poisoning, all that. So, I left for work for a brief time, the whole time I was there I did NOT want to be at work (Sorry boss) ...lets face it, I had a cute guy in my bed back at home!! Got home, did a few shots (he didn't) and we downloaded a movie to watch ... did our thing, and then when we were in the shower his phone started going off. (This was at about 3am I think?) He ignored it but it kept on going off... I went to sleep & figured he would too except that I sleep through everything so I didn't realize his phone was still going off... all night long.
Apparently the drama he had told me about on his first visit (Married woman wanting to jump his bones) had escalated. Her husband had found some of the txts she'd sent him and believed that they were 'involved' (to put it politely). Result of that is that my hot guy therapy spent the entire night, sitting beside me in bed, stressed and fretting for his own safety and his families safety and upset in general because he felt like he was "doing the time for a crime he didn't commit" so to speak. So, I didn't sleep well because lets face it, its hard to sleep when a bundle of awake and nervous energy is there beside you. Woke up Sunday morning & drove him to the cop shop because he wanted to talk to them about the threats & harassment and we got there only to find out that they aren't open on weekends... lol
Most of Sunday was spent trying to deal with the "issue" -- I got to see facebook messages, and text messages, and had to try to be some form of external (ie not involved) pillar of support which was fine, I'd do that for any one of my friends... drove him out to Costco later on in the afternoon to meet up with one of his other friends (guy in his 70's) who was his mentor when he was younger. Left the two of them to have a nice chat & I went and read the books, gave them some privacy (as much as one can in a public place). Then we went to the staff party. Which was dull... rather dull... Which is too bad. Ummmm.... went home, did our thing again, after downloading more movies to watch...
Monday I let him drive, and we went to the cop shop yet again because he really wanted to talk to an officer face to face, he ended up talking to the victim services counter.... We also went to the mall, and got his phone recharged & he got to talk to the husband and get that sorted out. We also shopped for his sister. Have I mentioned that I hate drama, and I hate malls? And I REALLY hate malls at Christmas time.
I feel sort of bad because I was left with the feeling of "Uhhh, this is so not what I signed up for." -- The other aspect of all of that weekend was that he was telling everybody I'm his gf. But he was telling me that its just fake, which is fine I suppose... except that it did temporarily tempt my brain into thinking of pondering 'what if' scenarios. I've decided not to ponder them though ....and the more I think about it the less I like the whole 'fake gf' scenario in general. I think there may have been other motives behind that "possibly" but don't believe enough to put any weight behind that so am not going to bank on it. I do care about him, it sucks that this drama had to fuck with our weekend, it sucks that he had to go through it at all... The whole thing just sucks.
By the end of the weekend I felt completely oversocialized and didn't want anything to do with anybody and then ended up getting kidnapped (or so I call it)
Now I'm in the heat of my work & just want to curl up in bed and hide from the world.... I worked Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Today (Friday) and Christmas Day -- And then I'm not sure what's up Boxing Day I Forget... I'm going 1 day to the next right now.
I guess right now I'm just struggling to hold onto ... I don't even know what. I got involved with this guy because I was fed up with the overly emotional men that I'd been dealing with in my life previously. I didn't want drama. Then, I get drama, and I have to deal with it, and it isn't even my drama to have to deal with. The only thing worse than having drama to deal with in your own life, is having someone else's drama to deal with. LOL
Maybe I'm just not relationship material, who knows.
Ugh. I'm going to get some sleep its 2am.
Merry Christmas everyone.
Love T