2009 Hopes...
Hmmm...
As I sit here, with a drink in one hand, and a Jeep at the end of the driveway and another Jeep at the shop, reflecting upon my life, my goals, my friends, my loves, my everything I suppose, I have come to make a vow.
I vow, to get back in shape. (Go figure, doesn't every woman make the same vow at the beginning of the year?)
I vow, to stay in touch better. This means both online and offline. I've pushed a lot of my friends away without even realizing it and the last couple months it seems like friends around me have been dropping like flies. I think its because my headspace is fucked up and so I push everyone away while I try to cope, when I should be reaching out to people to help me cope I suppose.
I vow, to begin embracing my shortcomings, instead of maneuvering my lifestyle to try to cover them up, as though I lead a perfect life. Maybe this is part of what pushed my friends away...
I vow, to laugh more. To take more time for myself, to not work so hard, to relish simply the fact that I am living my life. This in particular is important to me because in Jan 2008 I was laid off, and in February 2008 I began the single most challenging job I will likely ever experience. Yes, I made some amazing contacts through that job but when I look back and reflect and weigh the stresses, and everything else, it wasn't worth it. There will be amazing contacts through other avenues of my life, if I open my eyes to them. Some of them have already happened, through my school for instance :) I am glad to be out of that job, I am glad to have the opportunity to focus solely on my studies, and I am glad for this break in which I can strictly look towards the future.
After the way 2008 went, which ...admittedly "all summed up" was ...rather shitty, I feel I really need to spend 2009 enjoying life.
Maybe it means I need to do stupid things, maybe it means I need to go crazy, maybe it means I need to just ... escape, for a little while, I don't know. I think this is going to be an important year for me. I'm looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to reconnecting with my friends, I'm looking forward to 2009.
Love T.
As I sit here, with a drink in one hand, and a Jeep at the end of the driveway and another Jeep at the shop, reflecting upon my life, my goals, my friends, my loves, my everything I suppose, I have come to make a vow.
I vow, to get back in shape. (Go figure, doesn't every woman make the same vow at the beginning of the year?)
I vow, to stay in touch better. This means both online and offline. I've pushed a lot of my friends away without even realizing it and the last couple months it seems like friends around me have been dropping like flies. I think its because my headspace is fucked up and so I push everyone away while I try to cope, when I should be reaching out to people to help me cope I suppose.
I vow, to begin embracing my shortcomings, instead of maneuvering my lifestyle to try to cover them up, as though I lead a perfect life. Maybe this is part of what pushed my friends away...
I vow, to laugh more. To take more time for myself, to not work so hard, to relish simply the fact that I am living my life. This in particular is important to me because in Jan 2008 I was laid off, and in February 2008 I began the single most challenging job I will likely ever experience. Yes, I made some amazing contacts through that job but when I look back and reflect and weigh the stresses, and everything else, it wasn't worth it. There will be amazing contacts through other avenues of my life, if I open my eyes to them. Some of them have already happened, through my school for instance :) I am glad to be out of that job, I am glad to have the opportunity to focus solely on my studies, and I am glad for this break in which I can strictly look towards the future.
After the way 2008 went, which ...admittedly "all summed up" was ...rather shitty, I feel I really need to spend 2009 enjoying life.
Maybe it means I need to do stupid things, maybe it means I need to go crazy, maybe it means I need to just ... escape, for a little while, I don't know. I think this is going to be an important year for me. I'm looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to reconnecting with my friends, I'm looking forward to 2009.
Love T.