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funny how it still matters to me. I'm sitting in the library now and i was just stoning (as you do). and this girl walked in front of me. and my breath caught. because everything here now just reminds me of you. you introduced her to me. and i sat there for awhile, startled. cause i had forgotten about her. not forgotten, per se - i knew she existed, i knew she meant, means, a lot to you - but i had forgotten she existed in real life. i had forgotten she was a person, an actual person, and that i might actually see her around in school. i had forgotten because i'd only met her once. once. out of school, through you, and briefly. after that it was brief mentions - you liked talking about her but you didnt, at the same time. fragments, photos, snippets, facebook wallposts...
i've moved on. i've stopped thinking about you every day and hoping i'll see you. i've stopped waiting for your messages, and carried on like nothing happened. you still pop up occasionally, but now we're friends, just friends.
so why did seeing her in real life give me such a shock?
i guess cause its a reminder - a reminder of what i had, and what i miss. she's still really close to you and that makes me happy and sad at the same time - cause i know she makes you happy, but i also wish i did too.
Also - i read this article recently (HERE) and maybe this is putting me in that mood. i should be doing my work now, cramming for my test, but... its distracting me. and people are speaking french in the library next to me really loudly and it just sounds very nice so yes.
i've moved on. i've stopped thinking about you every day and hoping i'll see you. i've stopped waiting for your messages, and carried on like nothing happened. you still pop up occasionally, but now we're friends, just friends.
so why did seeing her in real life give me such a shock?
i guess cause its a reminder - a reminder of what i had, and what i miss. she's still really close to you and that makes me happy and sad at the same time - cause i know she makes you happy, but i also wish i did too.
Also - i read this article recently (HERE) and maybe this is putting me in that mood. i should be doing my work now, cramming for my test, but... its distracting me. and people are speaking french in the library next to me really loudly and it just sounds very nice so yes.