Was it all just a part of your plan?
Nothing really happened today but Im not emoing out or anything so I consider that a good day. Plus, I talked to Elijah, that always makes me smile :)
I didn't realize how much I care about Jacob until today when I was talking to him on aim. Havent really talked to him in a while so it was nice to hear what was actually going on in his life. I told him that I actually care about him and that Im here if he needs me and he said he understood, that it made sense because I know so much about his life. I guess that really is the reason. Me and him are similar when it comes to family situations but i think mine is worse yet better at the same time. I just admire him because he always seems so strong. The kid deals with a lot of shit and we all know I dont always handle bad situations all that well. The fact that he trusts me enough to have deep conversations with him (whenever i talk to him on aim it ends up to be very meaningful, never less than hour long) makes me...happy. I know I can tell him anything and that it doesnt phase him, he is always understanding and thoughtful, never judgmental. He makes it really easy to open up also. I kind of feel bad because i find it easier to talk to him than it is to talk to Katie but he made me realize why that is. I am just glad I have him in my life.
P.S.-Amanda, i like Jacob. I dont love Jacob. Im not in love Jacob.
For Elijah that has yet to be seen. Happy?
P.S.S.-I decided to not use my "my life/lack there of" tag anymore. I actually do matter and I realize that. And to have more posts like this :D
I didn't realize how much I care about Jacob until today when I was talking to him on aim. Havent really talked to him in a while so it was nice to hear what was actually going on in his life. I told him that I actually care about him and that Im here if he needs me and he said he understood, that it made sense because I know so much about his life. I guess that really is the reason. Me and him are similar when it comes to family situations but i think mine is worse yet better at the same time. I just admire him because he always seems so strong. The kid deals with a lot of shit and we all know I dont always handle bad situations all that well. The fact that he trusts me enough to have deep conversations with him (whenever i talk to him on aim it ends up to be very meaningful, never less than hour long) makes me...happy. I know I can tell him anything and that it doesnt phase him, he is always understanding and thoughtful, never judgmental. He makes it really easy to open up also. I kind of feel bad because i find it easier to talk to him than it is to talk to Katie but he made me realize why that is. I am just glad I have him in my life.
P.S.-Amanda, i like Jacob. I dont love Jacob. Im not in love Jacob.
For Elijah that has yet to be seen. Happy?
P.S.S.-I decided to not use my "my life/lack there of" tag anymore. I actually do matter and I realize that. And to have more posts like this :D