i need him for who im not

[sex_on_paws]

Why i need Fujimaru. I need him because, i'm trapped in my own life. I have to put on a show for everyone, i have to be this moral upright ridged person all the time. I hate it. I will never be free of social grace. it's so hard to be fun and free outside of suit.  I always feel that people are watching me judging me, i want nothing more than to throw away all my manners and everything else. Be as fun and silly as i have made fujimaru. Fujimaru is everything that i want to be. That's what i want him to be an extension of my self on that dosen't always need to be the thinker the intelligent one. I'd love just for awhile to be fun and silly that's why i have fuji he's all of that he doesn't care what others think .

I just hope one day i can be just like he is.