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i dont understand anymore.
i thought this feeling was gone. for good.
i was horribly wrong.
its back with a vengence.
and it hurts. bad.
i was doing ok. i was fine without you. and then im not sure if it was the words you spoke or the lack of them that killed me again.
i shouldnt feel like this. not over something so small. so insignificant.
ive been having a good break so far. nothing bad has happened.
ive been completely happy.
until tonight.
rawr. i want to wake up christmas morning with that one gift under the tree that i used to look forward to every year. its nothing big. nothing that cost a lot. just something that used to make me feel loved. something that made me feel special. to bad it will never be waiting for me on christmas morning ever again.
i hope everyone has a good break and a great holiday.
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