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[setsandthecity]

In a beautiful campus filled with snowy trees and shimmering fields, there's a girl who can't help but feel sad. This is a start at a new life, something she never thought would happen to her. Her old life at her old school turned the page and is never going to be visited again. All her old friends, the way she studied, the way she played sports, it all changed. The only thing remaining are her old habits. Having the crush on the cute yet asshole hockey players, wanting the popular friends, wanting to be popular herself. This girl was forced to change herself. Not really change her personality, but the way she viewed life. She didn't want it, but she needed it. This poor girl wanted to end her scene of adolescence at 15. She felt nothing was going right for her, and nothing ever would. Thatall changed with a touch of sharp metal and a therapist who changed her life. For nine grueling months, this girl turned into a lady, although it was difficult. Being by yourself in a city with eight million people is rough, not knowing who will be around or not being able to meet new people in such a dangerous environment enraged her. As each month passed she and felt better and better about herself. Her therapist and her parents made her feel less vulnerable to criticism and she was less unhappy with the world as she knew it. The only problem in her life was that she was alone. She had ben alone her whole life, in the city that never sleeps. She wonered to herself, "Was it worth it? Was all this money and time to make me happy again worth it?" Who knows if it was truly worth it. She thought it was when she found out she was going to a new school. Yes these past nine months, this adolescent didn't go to school. Instead she went to remedial education so she could correct the mistakes of her childhood education. You see, she had a small learning incability. Nothing huge, just not being able to understand hard concepts and not being able to understand sciences and math so clearly. Because of these classes, her reading level went up, her math grades went up, and school wasn't such a scary place anymore. Life wasn't such a scary place anymore. As she walks through the snowy pathway to class, she has a sigh of relief, knowing that here she will not feel subjected to violence towards herself. In this environment, even though the drama is unbearable, she is happy. She was her friends, she has her family, great grades, and she's a respected athlete. She feels on top of the world right about now. Yet through all of this, she still can't forget that one boy. The one who after two years of complicated indistinct romance, she misses more than anything. "If only", she hopes, "none of this had happened." They would be together, talk about baseball, have fun together, and love each other like they should.

After all this she wonders "Is change really for the better?"