Supplement to previous
Ok... so that was pretty bad and not all finished when the computer decided to try exploding.
So, if you really feel the need here's the remainder of my
Depressed rant...
Oh, I totally forgot to cover Chanuka.
You want to know my grand total of presents? A pair of earrings from my father. Now don't get me wrong, they were lovely earrings, silver and turquoise. But this is the culminating present of my high school graduation, 18th birthday, entering college AND chanuka.
I got two interesting looking sci-fi books from Carol. One by an obscure author that I really like. And a promise to donate to my Japan fund. Which will be really fuckin' funny when my grades come back at a 2.8 and I'm not even elligible to apply.
5 things that would make me happy: (or a lot more than 5 this time)
not to smell like smoke
austin, or bj, even brad or chris or nick or anyone to cuddle and demand a backrub and moral support from
a total cutting of contact with Java Boy / Brian
my mother
a father - any father
sleep...
the damned semester to be over already
music... the right music, that knows how to soothe my whining and make me better
to know what everyone really thinks of me so that I can stop playing these games
Ok... As one might not be suprised to know... apparently "Dreddo 39" was a song capable of making my life a little better.
So.. yeah, I'm going to go to sleep. Or maybe shower (second time tonight) to get the smoke off...
Bishonen: Ranmaru... because he has just that edge of depression and is on my winamp skin.
Bishojo: Shiori and Saihi (for differnt reasons, but the same. girls are bitter and cruel and too easily lost in dark seas of unfathomable emotion (myself no exception))
So, if you really feel the need here's the remainder of my
Depressed rant...
Oh, I totally forgot to cover Chanuka.
You want to know my grand total of presents? A pair of earrings from my father. Now don't get me wrong, they were lovely earrings, silver and turquoise. But this is the culminating present of my high school graduation, 18th birthday, entering college AND chanuka.
I got two interesting looking sci-fi books from Carol. One by an obscure author that I really like. And a promise to donate to my Japan fund. Which will be really fuckin' funny when my grades come back at a 2.8 and I'm not even elligible to apply.
5 things that would make me happy: (or a lot more than 5 this time)
not to smell like smoke
austin, or bj, even brad or chris or nick or anyone to cuddle and demand a backrub and moral support from
a total cutting of contact with Java Boy / Brian
my mother
a father - any father
sleep...
the damned semester to be over already
music... the right music, that knows how to soothe my whining and make me better
to know what everyone really thinks of me so that I can stop playing these games
Ok... As one might not be suprised to know... apparently "Dreddo 39" was a song capable of making my life a little better.
So.. yeah, I'm going to go to sleep. Or maybe shower (second time tonight) to get the smoke off...
Bishonen: Ranmaru... because he has just that edge of depression and is on my winamp skin.
Bishojo: Shiori and Saihi (for differnt reasons, but the same. girls are bitter and cruel and too easily lost in dark seas of unfathomable emotion (myself no exception))