Feeling pissy today
I'm feeling really pissy today and I don't know why. It probably has to do with the fact that sleep was elusive after 3 am this morning. I couldn't get back to the level of sleep I had before waking up to go to the bathroom around that time. I had to get up cause my bladder was cramping my back up so I get up and go right?
Well after using said facilities, I go back to bed. AND I CAN'T! Why you ask? Cause I was having some minor contractions which felt worse after using the bathroom. I don't know why they were worse afterwards. Anyhoo...I wind up tossing and turning for the next few hours trying to deal with the contractions and trying to get back to sleep. It doesn't happen. >.> I wind up waking up again a short time later to use the bathroom YET AGAIN DAMMIT! But I don't have anything to give. And so I go back to bed with again minor contractions throbbing in my lower abdomen.
Unfortunately, again I wake up a short time later with the same problem, yet this time I don't go to the bathroom, I just lay in bed rocking back and forth trying to ignore the pain and just submitting to what I thought was the inevitable, birth. Boy was I wrong! >.> I'm still here at home watching the TV and on the computer. After I woke up the fourth and final time I just said "Fuck this shit I'm staying up, I can't sleep."
But then I get hungry for some cereal. Only problem is, NO MILK DAMMIT! I don't eat dry cereal. I hate it. It gets caught in my teeth and dries my mouth up and just makes me want milk all the more. My mom said, have some oatmeal. Sounds ok right? WRONG! The oatmeal I have is the kind you have to cook in a pot. Not to mention, its on the bottom most shelf in the pantry and probably shoved to the very back.
"Eat some eggs then," say my folks. >.> I can't eat eggs unless they are hard-boiled and I just don't fucking want them. So I wind up not eating any breakfast at all. So I have a yogurt cup as a snack and wait til lunch rolls around. But there is nothing in this god-forsaken house I really want to eat. In fact its been that way for the last few days. Is this what happens to women when delivery is so near? They get these wild and unmanagable mood swings that make them insane enough to commit murder and not give a shit? If so, this fucking sucks assage. I want no part of them. I already deal with wild mood swings, I don't need my hormones making things even worse for me and those around me. What's worse the more I try to keep them under control the more uncontrolable I feel and the less of a grip I have on them.
I hate this, so read this, leave a comment if you want but DON'T BUG ME! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE! >.> * feeling even more unreasonably angry and pissy and glares at everyone *
Well after using said facilities, I go back to bed. AND I CAN'T! Why you ask? Cause I was having some minor contractions which felt worse after using the bathroom. I don't know why they were worse afterwards. Anyhoo...I wind up tossing and turning for the next few hours trying to deal with the contractions and trying to get back to sleep. It doesn't happen. >.> I wind up waking up again a short time later to use the bathroom YET AGAIN DAMMIT! But I don't have anything to give. And so I go back to bed with again minor contractions throbbing in my lower abdomen.
Unfortunately, again I wake up a short time later with the same problem, yet this time I don't go to the bathroom, I just lay in bed rocking back and forth trying to ignore the pain and just submitting to what I thought was the inevitable, birth. Boy was I wrong! >.> I'm still here at home watching the TV and on the computer. After I woke up the fourth and final time I just said "Fuck this shit I'm staying up, I can't sleep."
But then I get hungry for some cereal. Only problem is, NO MILK DAMMIT! I don't eat dry cereal. I hate it. It gets caught in my teeth and dries my mouth up and just makes me want milk all the more. My mom said, have some oatmeal. Sounds ok right? WRONG! The oatmeal I have is the kind you have to cook in a pot. Not to mention, its on the bottom most shelf in the pantry and probably shoved to the very back.
"Eat some eggs then," say my folks. >.> I can't eat eggs unless they are hard-boiled and I just don't fucking want them. So I wind up not eating any breakfast at all. So I have a yogurt cup as a snack and wait til lunch rolls around. But there is nothing in this god-forsaken house I really want to eat. In fact its been that way for the last few days. Is this what happens to women when delivery is so near? They get these wild and unmanagable mood swings that make them insane enough to commit murder and not give a shit? If so, this fucking sucks assage. I want no part of them. I already deal with wild mood swings, I don't need my hormones making things even worse for me and those around me. What's worse the more I try to keep them under control the more uncontrolable I feel and the less of a grip I have on them.
I hate this, so read this, leave a comment if you want but DON'T BUG ME! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE! >.> * feeling even more unreasonably angry and pissy and glares at everyone *