Meh
Soo.... its the holidays and yup, still feeling moody.
Usually by this time of year I'm feeling pretty good. Nope, once again, I absolutely hate it. Forced happiness sucks and I'm sick of people telling me that my pain is nothing compared to someone else's.
Fuck you douchebag.
My problems are my problems. I told you because, stupidly I thought I could get a little support. Did I? Oh no.. I got told my problems are worthless compared to so and so's.
Again, fuck you, you douchecanoe. My pain is mine, I was just stupidly hoping that maybe you could help me see its not so bad maybe and to hold on a bit. Or I don't, just let me vent a little and just let me get it out there? But no, you told me that because my insecurities were insignificant next to your relative who is bi-polar and is "worse off than you and your petty problems", so was my anxiety. Sorry, not sorry if you think my problems are petty. To my mind, they are horrible insurmountable objects that have crashed down in front of me cutting off my air and the part of my brain that tells me that in the first place.
I must be a fucking moron to keep coming to you. You wonder why I don't talk to you as much? Maybe its because you're a dick. I don't know why I continue to be friends with someone like you.
............
This isn't directed to anyone here at Lj, but its something I have had sitting on my chest for a while and I needed to get rid of it finally, and just purge it from my head.
Usually by this time of year I'm feeling pretty good. Nope, once again, I absolutely hate it. Forced happiness sucks and I'm sick of people telling me that my pain is nothing compared to someone else's.
Fuck you douchebag.
My problems are my problems. I told you because, stupidly I thought I could get a little support. Did I? Oh no.. I got told my problems are worthless compared to so and so's.
Again, fuck you, you douchecanoe. My pain is mine, I was just stupidly hoping that maybe you could help me see its not so bad maybe and to hold on a bit. Or I don't, just let me vent a little and just let me get it out there? But no, you told me that because my insecurities were insignificant next to your relative who is bi-polar and is "worse off than you and your petty problems", so was my anxiety. Sorry, not sorry if you think my problems are petty. To my mind, they are horrible insurmountable objects that have crashed down in front of me cutting off my air and the part of my brain that tells me that in the first place.
I must be a fucking moron to keep coming to you. You wonder why I don't talk to you as much? Maybe its because you're a dick. I don't know why I continue to be friends with someone like you.
............
This isn't directed to anyone here at Lj, but its something I have had sitting on my chest for a while and I needed to get rid of it finally, and just purge it from my head.