What the F*** are they doing to me?

[sesshysgirl]

All, ok, most of my friends know how sick I've been this year. I'm never this unhearlthy and now it's only getting worse for me. I'm really sick agian. I've been this way all year and I'm always tired too. I know why now and its not funny. My parents are making my body sick and weak. All the impossible pressure and how they critisize me for not seeing well, needing a bioptic, and screaming and whinning all the time! its making my brain stressed and now my body is sick. That's why nothing else has helped to cure me. I knew I was having allergies out of season and being unushually unhealthy. But I would have never guessed someone could make you sick like this. They are really starting to make me dangerously unwell. The nurse found a slight heart mummur on me when I was in today with an unexplained fever. She won't say anything but she thinks I could end up in the hospital if I can't get help. Its really making my body sick. I can't beleive it. But I'm sick and my heart is getting a temporary mummur. I'm gona try and tell a guidence couselor or someone to help.
My heart is fucking up too now. I have a temporary mumour that makes it feel small and I can't even breathe right! I'm a totaly screw up that gets to fall apart now just a year before I leave for good. I'm really not doing well but any adult I could go to I can't tell the truth to about why I'm sick. Everyone thinks my parents are hot shit cus they put on an act for them. They act all upbeat and "yep yep" but they are the worst people I know. They critisize everyone and are totally unfair and want me to be my sister. I wanna be left alone. I was atleast able to jog and breathe then.