Communication
So theres this person I know. Special to me in so many ways, and as similar to me as anyone has ever been before. The person in question really pisses me off, I mean hardcore. I say very mean things about them and tell people when they ask that the person is a cunt. But when I talk to this person I can never seem to really say anything mean other than they're stupid, which they are. This person has a similar past to me, and has gone through some of the same things. They are trying to correct themselves, at least thats what it seems. Deep down I don't know anymore. Too many times the rules have been broken, and too many times this person seems to not give a shit about correcting said problems. We argue constently, but its always fine afterwards. This time I just don't know. I want it to stop. I want to forget. I want to pretend that this person no longer exists. But I can't. No matter what I try I just can't do it. And then I realize that I don't really want to stop knowing this person. I just want to help them. Even though I know that there is no longer anything that I can do. I want to hit the person in the face, but I can't. I want to lock it away where it can't be bothered by people trying only to destroy it. The ones who don't look out for its best interest. I need some guidance here people. I'm out of shit to say and do. And quite frankly, my last nerves are pretty much shot. For those of you that know me, you know how hard this is to do. What do I do? What do I say? Do I regress myself and become that which I loath to try and connect once more? Do I stay silent? Or do I simply say nothing, and let nature run its course? Why does this shit always have to happen to me...What I need right now is a few lines of coke and an e pill or 2. What I've got are ciggies and an ipod. Guess i'll have to make do...Castutatus Lilium...