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well it appears I've shut down a bit. told work I've got strep throat to get an extra 2 days "recovery". trying to put in some job applications so I don't feel completely useless.
Had a great day saturday, visited friends and went to the inkwells in lagunitas. went to davis saturday night, was great to see some of the gang but my crush on Dan appears to be in vain. Either it's unrequited or he is way too deep in his own issues for anything to happen.
Fortunately, my crush on Andy from recycle camp may be worthwhile. not only did he send me his number, but he works at the B Corp Lab! that is way impressive, i had no idea what he worked in and that company is the shit. I registered Interschola with B Corporation right before I quit, which is the for-profit socially responsible business certification, with B Corp Lab as the non-profit arm.
Yeah...young, hot, and works for one of the world's greatest companies. Pretty much already want to marry him.
Unfortunately, my bad self esteem is now choosing to take over. I am basically obese right now, and work part time for a gig that I don't really have any commitment to. I'm planning on quitting to take a job in the pot industry while "job hunting" and continually postponing the things I say I care about.
I have a growing to-do list of things that have been obscenely procrastinated.
I'm torn between hating myself for letting these things happen, and wanting to deny that it's my fault because of my health problems, or readjusting my expectations because of my health problems. what am I really good at that I also love doing? Sometimes I'm so certain and yet I feel so frozen watching people around me. I'm tired of my life being in so much TRANSITION the past few months, it's fucking unsettling.
Had a great day saturday, visited friends and went to the inkwells in lagunitas. went to davis saturday night, was great to see some of the gang but my crush on Dan appears to be in vain. Either it's unrequited or he is way too deep in his own issues for anything to happen.
Fortunately, my crush on Andy from recycle camp may be worthwhile. not only did he send me his number, but he works at the B Corp Lab! that is way impressive, i had no idea what he worked in and that company is the shit. I registered Interschola with B Corporation right before I quit, which is the for-profit socially responsible business certification, with B Corp Lab as the non-profit arm.
Yeah...young, hot, and works for one of the world's greatest companies. Pretty much already want to marry him.
Unfortunately, my bad self esteem is now choosing to take over. I am basically obese right now, and work part time for a gig that I don't really have any commitment to. I'm planning on quitting to take a job in the pot industry while "job hunting" and continually postponing the things I say I care about.
I have a growing to-do list of things that have been obscenely procrastinated.
I'm torn between hating myself for letting these things happen, and wanting to deny that it's my fault because of my health problems, or readjusting my expectations because of my health problems. what am I really good at that I also love doing? Sometimes I'm so certain and yet I feel so frozen watching people around me. I'm tired of my life being in so much TRANSITION the past few months, it's fucking unsettling.