bleh?
i'm all blargy shmargy.
i don't know why exactly.
i am the happiest that i have been in a long time. probably the last time i was happy beyond control was before i found out that katy liked dana. it seemed like everything was perfect. i had a best friend and a nice body AND i was getting to go out with a guy that i had liked for 3847 years. things are so different now. i have no best friend and my body is going to shit AND that guy that i once dreamed of dating is now so disgusting and ugly to me.
why do i feel better now? it's almost the complete opposite of the last time i was happy.
i've been feeling really shitty lately and i have just been trying to hide it from everyone. ohhh so that explains the lack of updates. why yes it does.
i'm still kind of sad, but i am really glad that katy and i are on speaking terms. i think we are "friends", but i wouldn't know. i'm glad that she missed me though and i'm glad that she said she was sorry. i don't know what anything is going to be like now. i'm not sure to what extent she really cares about having me around, but i will try to refrain from asking. i don't want her to think that i am still so clingy.
maybe i am? i don't know. i just want to be around people that i care about.
well. that is enough of that for now. just had to get some of that out there. it's still not everything, but it's enough to get the basic concept out there.
i know it's weird, but i still miss her.
i don't know why exactly.
i am the happiest that i have been in a long time. probably the last time i was happy beyond control was before i found out that katy liked dana. it seemed like everything was perfect. i had a best friend and a nice body AND i was getting to go out with a guy that i had liked for 3847 years. things are so different now. i have no best friend and my body is going to shit AND that guy that i once dreamed of dating is now so disgusting and ugly to me.
why do i feel better now? it's almost the complete opposite of the last time i was happy.
i've been feeling really shitty lately and i have just been trying to hide it from everyone. ohhh so that explains the lack of updates. why yes it does.
i'm still kind of sad, but i am really glad that katy and i are on speaking terms. i think we are "friends", but i wouldn't know. i'm glad that she missed me though and i'm glad that she said she was sorry. i don't know what anything is going to be like now. i'm not sure to what extent she really cares about having me around, but i will try to refrain from asking. i don't want her to think that i am still so clingy.
maybe i am? i don't know. i just want to be around people that i care about.
well. that is enough of that for now. just had to get some of that out there. it's still not everything, but it's enough to get the basic concept out there.
i know it's weird, but i still miss her.