the road before me
The road before me is set out in some way, I can feel it. Like every single fu*ked up crappy thing that is going on right now is all happening for a reason. Is it to help me grow? Is it to get me to go somewhere? To become something? To find someone? I dont know. All I know is that since scotland the ties between myself and my BHS friends has faded fast. I only hear from a few of them, I write to them when I can but I rarely get a reply. I have been forgotten by the people I once held as my only true friends in this world. Even though Im mad at them I still miss them horribly.
How can we fade from memory? Once vital to a life? Now empty eyes they see me through, only I'm filled with this lingering strife. I can not feel my skin inside, its now empty, pale and dry, The eyes that look back on them hoping, is filled with tears and sigh, Like a forgotten childhood toy, once important but now tattered and meak, These promises that you'll love me always, are quickly growing weak, I cant expect you to change your life, and save time just for me, but do remember what we have had and what is yet to be.
I love you all, write even just to say hi and thats all, your always in my heart.....
I hope I'm somewhere in yours
Katt~