How things change
Wow. I haven't logged in forever here. Honestly it's because I kinda stopped dressing in lolita. Not that I don't want to; I really want to. I just can't afford to atm. Yay work and responsibilities. I'm still with Anthony, thankfully, and considering how I was so unsure in the beginning, it amazes me. I practically live at his apartment now. I still go on the weekends to my place to visit the cats and my parents though. I'm a lot more responsible than I used to be. I just don't feel I'm ready to leave my place fully yet until we're more financially stable. I lost a lot of weight. I topped out at 244 until I went down to 191. I'd like to blame Anthony though, hahaha. A lot of that was happiness weight, I guess. I'm trying to eventually go down to 140/150 and eventually 125 but I'll wait until I get closer to my temporary goal before I embark upon that route.
I honestly wish I didn't work though. Kinda slowed down school. I just hope I can do it this coming year. I finally did pass pre-cal and pre-cal 2. I'm trying to go for calculus now. I'm pretty sure I want to go down the biology route, I just don't know still whether I'm going for nursing (and eventually physician's assistant) or physician's assistant straight out. I hope I can get into college level chemistry but I don't know how that'll work out. I'm also taking biology 197 (advanced intro biology part 2) and anatomy and physiology. There's still a lot I have to work on, but I feel weird about it. I feel like I've changed a lot, but at the same time I've stayed the same.
I lost a lot of friends these few years, so I feel pretty lonely, but I know that's going to happen anyway. I kinda miss my teenager years, but I am honestly happier than I used to be. I don't cry anymore every day or feel miserable about jerk x who made me feel extreme highs and lows. I've gained someone I love and respect, when I never thought I could have that after my ex. I never thought I would've actually found a boyfriend this soon, and sometimes it's been so long I forgot there was a time I didn't spend most of my time at someone else's place. Nothing ever happens according to plan, but I just hope everything works out this next year. I really want to graduate and stop being forever broke.
I honestly wish I didn't work though. Kinda slowed down school. I just hope I can do it this coming year. I finally did pass pre-cal and pre-cal 2. I'm trying to go for calculus now. I'm pretty sure I want to go down the biology route, I just don't know still whether I'm going for nursing (and eventually physician's assistant) or physician's assistant straight out. I hope I can get into college level chemistry but I don't know how that'll work out. I'm also taking biology 197 (advanced intro biology part 2) and anatomy and physiology. There's still a lot I have to work on, but I feel weird about it. I feel like I've changed a lot, but at the same time I've stayed the same.
I lost a lot of friends these few years, so I feel pretty lonely, but I know that's going to happen anyway. I kinda miss my teenager years, but I am honestly happier than I used to be. I don't cry anymore every day or feel miserable about jerk x who made me feel extreme highs and lows. I've gained someone I love and respect, when I never thought I could have that after my ex. I never thought I would've actually found a boyfriend this soon, and sometimes it's been so long I forgot there was a time I didn't spend most of my time at someone else's place. Nothing ever happens according to plan, but I just hope everything works out this next year. I really want to graduate and stop being forever broke.