changes made
i brought back my easel, oil paints, charcoals, newsprint and canvases from home. i spent yesterday rearranging my furniture, buying and constructing a set of shelves, cleaning out, shifting, and fighting several bugs including one sick kind i got from jemma.
my room is flooded with sunlight, the easel is up, and i am ready to spend a day ortwo in front of it sketching ideas for paintings. i wonder what will fall out of me. i haven't painted in years, but have been feeling a deep desire to for the past few weeks.
i was flooded with memories and excited energy last night as i got out old and new paint brushes, oil paints, linseed oil, paint thinner, and the like. grampa's old carrying cases house extra supplies and his old pastels that i can't quite bear to use unless i have an awesome idea. i have one blank canvas that he never used...and i can't bring myself to put it to good use...not until i really KNOW what i want on it.
so i'm feeling pretty fantastic about all of this
creative energy of late.
in other news: i am seeing a boy named mike, and it seems to be headed in a direction of serious-ness...although we both have our fears and apprehensions. we are "seeing what happens" and staying honest. this is a combination of two very different people and we are aware of such differences. right now, there's plenty of room for them...which is how i hope to keep it. for the moment, it fels unbearably good to be held and kissed, to be looked at with deep eyes, and to be made to laugh uncontrollably. to wake up next to someone is something i missed more than i had realized. so that's that.
there's still a lot of yoga, though schedules will be changing at inspirit in a couple of weeks. financially, one day, i will be able to eat more than rice and beans. until then, there's a lot of crunchy food and fruitveggie stuff going on.
much love to all.
my room is flooded with sunlight, the easel is up, and i am ready to spend a day ortwo in front of it sketching ideas for paintings. i wonder what will fall out of me. i haven't painted in years, but have been feeling a deep desire to for the past few weeks.
i was flooded with memories and excited energy last night as i got out old and new paint brushes, oil paints, linseed oil, paint thinner, and the like. grampa's old carrying cases house extra supplies and his old pastels that i can't quite bear to use unless i have an awesome idea. i have one blank canvas that he never used...and i can't bring myself to put it to good use...not until i really KNOW what i want on it.
so i'm feeling pretty fantastic about all of this
creative energy of late.
in other news: i am seeing a boy named mike, and it seems to be headed in a direction of serious-ness...although we both have our fears and apprehensions. we are "seeing what happens" and staying honest. this is a combination of two very different people and we are aware of such differences. right now, there's plenty of room for them...which is how i hope to keep it. for the moment, it fels unbearably good to be held and kissed, to be looked at with deep eyes, and to be made to laugh uncontrollably. to wake up next to someone is something i missed more than i had realized. so that's that.
there's still a lot of yoga, though schedules will be changing at inspirit in a couple of weeks. financially, one day, i will be able to eat more than rice and beans. until then, there's a lot of crunchy food and fruitveggie stuff going on.
much love to all.