The fun keeps on coming...
So today I had to make a really, really hard decision...I had to put my cat to sleep :( He was steadily losing weight since the last time I posted about this a few months ago. I talked to a vet 2 months ago, and he basically told me that he'd have to run about 200$ worth of tests and the likely outcome would be something related to old age, cancer, or something else that likely wouldn't be treatable, or would cost quite alot of money to take care of, but that he was going to be honest and say the outcome would probably not justify the cost since I really didn't have the money to spend. So we decided to wait, because at the time he seemed okay, just very thin. He was eating and drinking and doing all his normal stuff, so we just let him enjoy his last months. But the last two days I watched his condition deteriorate. He stopped eating, he no longer cared if I ran the hair dryer, where normally he'd freak and run...He let us pick him up and hold him which he NEVER let us do when he was healthy. When I left him this morning he had crawled under the covers of our bed and just layed there. I knew it was time...Probably past time, but I just couldn't let him go before. I almost think he knew that Christmas was coming and he'd hold out until after then...But he just couldn't anymore, so I called the vet and took him in a few hours ago.
I cried all day long because it's such a hard decision even when you know it's the right one. No one wants to play God and decide when to have something or someone die...But sometimes it's what they need. His life wasn't happy anymore, and he was ready. He didn't even care about the car ride like he ususally does. I think he knew where we were going and why. My husband stayed with him when they gave the injection, I couldn't do it, plus my son was there and I didn't want him to be any more upset than he was already. But it was quick...My husband said that it was all over in about 20 seconds. He just closed his eyes and left. He didn't even flinch when they gave the shot.
I'm so crushed...I will miss him so much but I know we had to let him go...It's just SO hard. I hate that things have to get old and die...It's just not fair!
I cried all day long because it's such a hard decision even when you know it's the right one. No one wants to play God and decide when to have something or someone die...But sometimes it's what they need. His life wasn't happy anymore, and he was ready. He didn't even care about the car ride like he ususally does. I think he knew where we were going and why. My husband stayed with him when they gave the injection, I couldn't do it, plus my son was there and I didn't want him to be any more upset than he was already. But it was quick...My husband said that it was all over in about 20 seconds. He just closed his eyes and left. He didn't even flinch when they gave the shot.
I'm so crushed...I will miss him so much but I know we had to let him go...It's just SO hard. I hate that things have to get old and die...It's just not fair!